Potion for your Mind’s Motion- Art, Comedy, Mental Health, Imperfect poems, Lived Experience Stories, Advice (good and bad)
When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up? My child self, not yet afflicted, totally blissfully unaware of anything other than the freedom to dream I can literally visualise the scenery and the image etched in my memory, transporting me back in time instantly, to answer this. In the … Continue reading Aspirations of my 5 year old self
Life, death, beauty beside decay, as ms portrayed visually, as a reminder of transformation, which sometimes only starts after death. Madness, eh! Hello hello Is anybody out there? Hello hello Can anybody hear? Hello hello All I hear are echoes I shout your name but no one hears The echoes, echoes, All I hear are … Continue reading Pending echoes- lyrics to my last song, link to recorded version yet to come!
What makes you laugh? This time, the daily oracle answered thus- My own demise. It’s gone stage Mother of Dragons, pal! It can be so fucking bad it’s just plain funny. Then what do you do? Why, you laugh your way back to life! 🌈☮️😂 They said…
Hope is beginning to whisper reassurances back into my ears… Having actually been listened to by a different psychiatrist, it was agreed I would go for a short term inpatient treatment stay at one of the non-assessment wards, Mill View this time, so totally different experience to where I have been before, and gone through … Continue reading Hope to heal
What tattoo do you want and where would you put it? This is an original creation of my late and dearly missed mother. I defy anyone to disagree with me that this wouldn’t make the most spectacular of tattoos. Obviously, the meaning and significance behind it is immense- It is an amazing creation from the … Continue reading The perfect most meaningful tattoo, that I wish I could fund…
Who is the most confident person you know? Guess my answer… The answer to this daily prompt question, asking, ‘who is the most confident person I know?’ Well, I reckon, that despite having had the privilege of meeting some incredibly confident people in my lifetime, and taking inspiration from the their unwavering shine, I find … Continue reading Tooting my own horn without shame 🎺🌈
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? What an apt daily question to ask, of someone who is officially ‘diagnosed’ as having C-PTSD, BPD, Major Depressive Illness, recurring eating disorders and a history of drug and alcohol addiction! You asked for this! Prepare yourselves for some disturbing answers, and hopefully, a few … Continue reading What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’!
The woman I keep on becoming (we never cease to adapt, aspire, and amaze) Women: (We already know what I’m about to say, oh, we know) But y’know, in light of #internationalwomen’sday 2024, I’ll say a few words. We are not just warriors, who have endured any such a Blitzkrieg- that purposefully, may cause a … Continue reading In celebration of international women’s day
Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.
Your Art and your afterlife Art that I drew and revived for you. I finished the Heart and butterflies drawing just seconds after midnight turned into Mother’s Day. That’s good timing for me, I’m usually not the timekeeping master of the century. But you knew that anyway… ❤️ Happy Mother’s Day Mum…. I lit my … Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day, I miss you 💜
Find empathy for the planet and non human creatures difficult? https://youtu.be/p7LDk4D3Q3U?si=mhI2D5fpu1PWNiPY -YouTube animation credit: Steve Cutts For some, Empathy comes almost too easily, which can be problematic and world full of Narcissists. Many of us won’t even know where we stand, label wise, between the polar opposites of the ‘Empath’ or the ‘Narcissist’. That’s absolutely … Continue reading An introductory video to Empathy
A seven minute read about real life Friday Nights (and the other days) mental health survival tactics… Warning- includes video of me actually singing due to loss of shame!
‘The portal’ I just walked up to the small building, which houses the interior of a wonderland called ‘Ground’, which runs Art groups, as I’ve just been enlightened about. As it just so happened, I’d forgotten to ask the time and day the groups were actually on at the time I was told about them… … Continue reading Waking up on the Ground
No, ‘life’, you still haven’t stopped me. I might have been crushed, but I am a soul with the ‘chaos within to give rise to a dancing star‘ to quote Nietzsche, and my energy, compressed… apparently (I’ve noticed, after observing the survival of my intact soul, after countless afflictions, and attacks, have tried to dim … Continue reading Declaration against my defeat
Life can be tough, I’m sure we can all agree. Sure it’s got its beautiful moments and even years, too, but we go through life, and despite individual differences in specific circumstances, we are on a battlefield, always. You can’t afford to let your guard down, neither can you afford to simply hide away from … Continue reading The warrior and the shield
In crisis? You are definitely not alone. This post is not a cure all, just based on my own lived experiences with mental illness and suicidal crises, I hope that some of the ideas I’ve learned from myself and others, in order to survive, might be able help you when you need it so baby too. Please share the word of you can ❤️
Sometimes one feels lost, swept away, from the familiarities of days which felt happier, and it’s easy to miss what you once knew then, you can loathe and dread all the chaos of the unknown, when suddenly, days swamped you with sadness, and your next best direction feels like a cloak over your vision, of … Continue reading Short poem, or lyrics in the making
I’ve not published a bombardment of musical suggestions for some weeks now, and having re-discovered and newly discovered some new fabulous sounds, I felt compelled to share, in case anyone could do with some potential ‘sound plasters’ today, just as I very much do too! Emmy the great- Paper Forest (In the afterglow of rapture) … Continue reading Need some musical first aid today?
Mental health matters, so damn much! We need to do something to save ourselves, and our mental health systems in the UK…. If you don’t have time to read the full article, then please just tap this link and take 5 minutes to read the cause, then decide to sign or not. If you can … Continue reading Let’s unite for better mental health services
*probably shouldn’t be using this GIF*TW? Too late I guess! ❤️❤️❤️ Haha oh the laughs to be had! How did you spend your Valentine’s Day Ellie? Why, I got admitted to a psych ward! Awww, I love you too, plastic mattress, let’s spend the night together! 😂😂😂❤️ Credit for song and lyrics to: Ava Max- … Continue reading Valium be my Valentine
I never, ever, thought I’d have to say goodbye to you, my Mum, so soon and so unexpectedly, unfairly and incomprehensibly, as I did. You were more than my world, you were more than an Art Teacher, Mother, Wife, last surviving sibling of the two, and daughter to your own parents. More than a friend, … Continue reading Our last goodbye
I am inclined towards believing the theme here in on love, then… Once, thus far, in my lifetime as it flows, I have felt the force of love, undefineable, divine. The kind that only the fortunate, lucky soul knows, and I can only wish to feel one day again. Beautiful, growing and rebounding, like an … Continue reading DBVT- Day before Valentine’s Day poem challenge
Question of day prompt You know what, this question is so broad and open ended, that, as a Philosopher trapped inside an idiot’s mind, I’m probably going to have to just make this a quick answer. Because; it’s 7.15 am, and I’ve been thinking so much about so bloody much, all night, that I am … Continue reading You get some really great, amazing news. What’s the first thing you do?
It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’
What do you complain about the most? Do you know what, right now, it’s about stress. My instant emotional situation, which generally seems to have been building up and slowing down then building up and slowing down (etc)… well right now, I am so damn stressed. I can make guesses as to why, but I’m … Continue reading Questioning occurred, I complied
I want to take your hand in mine, then together, try and pull us through. A photo taken when i travelled in India… I think it fits well with the topic I realised it’s going to take more than just written words and spoken testimonies, which match like mirrors, the same actions others have tried … Continue reading To all the lost, the survivors, the families the friends. My mental health is a journey, I too must pursue.
Psychiatric stand up- how to wind up your 1:1 ‘constants’, and other ways of getting through the ‘madness’ of the ‘madhouse’ to wind up your 1:1 ‘constants’, and other ways of getting through the ‘madness’ of the ‘madhouse’ those who might need a laugh, whatever your circumstances- We all get one eventually! This post is … Continue reading Takes from the psych ward- ‘Psychiatric stand up’
List five things you do for fun. Do you want the funny version first, or the serious one? Don’t worry, you don’t even have to choose, I think I know what you want… So does this duck or goose (seriously, I can’t tell) 1. I like to host a weekly support group for misunderstood house … Continue reading You’ve got questions, well I’ve got answers
You’re still there- no matter how lost you are ‘I’ve lost myself trying to please everyone else… Now I’m losing everyone and finding myself’ -Words written by a friend on a journey towards recovery The words of this friend got to me and moved me in quite a way. I’m sure I’m not alone in … Continue reading Losing and then finding yourself
God, doesn’t the sight of it just make you mad you can’t just reach into this still image and grab it, so you can heat your home? I stumbled upon an interesting question posted by a group on Facebook called ‘Humble Quote’. The question: ‘Answer This QuestionWithoutSaying, Yeah, Yea, Yo, Yes, Yah, Yup, Yap, Yep,'DO … Continue reading ‘Do you need money’?
The mental health crisis extends beyond treatment accessibility and quality, intersecting with justice and correctional systems with punitive … The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health I had to re-blog this brilliant post, as it addresses the key issues facing the future and the challenges which impact the widely and fatally underrepresented, ignored and … Continue reading The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health
Helping hands don’t go forgotten Amidst all the chaos of self centred, or overwhelmed, blinkered eyes, who are so many of the people who daily, pass us by, heads tilted to the ground, eyes desperate to dart away when your own eyes come close to meeting their glare… There are a handful of faces, names … Continue reading Shout out to all those unsung heroes- strangers who we wish we could find today, to thank properly for how they helped us in the past- *TW* (suicide, mentions of abuse, and self harm)
Please accept these links to some of my favourite ‘musical first aid’ songs! 1. ‘Song for the crickets’ - Parov Stelar: Open song in Spotify app 2. ‘Why do you only call me when you’re high?’ - Artic Monkeys: Open song in Spotify app 3. ‘Creep’- Radiohead: Open song in Spotify app 4. ‘Angel Eyes’- … Continue reading Musical first aid time
I know I need to write, to let off steam. If I don’t write, then i’ll just be left alone with the thoughts, and the thoughts are crap company. But …Contradictions
‘Do I look high to you!? Never mind my new hat, you just focus on my question!’ And my Dad swears to me that he had fed me no alcohol before taking this picture…! ‘K hole? What K hole!?’ I’m listening to the heartbeat of this soft and soothing pile of pebbles!’ So I have … Continue reading Evidence emerges to prove I have been ‘off my head’ without any need for drugs/alcohol, from the beginning. I was born this way!
Speaking about experiences of abuse of any kind- this is a post alluding to how it affects both men and women, with a personal male account from my own Dad
If you love an addict or an alcoholic, you probably struggle with sadness. Maybe your sadness has spiraled into depression, or anxiety, or some … Why We Are Sad A re-blog I simply had to share, alongside my own ‘reply’ to the perspective of the author who speaks passionately about ‘Why we are sad’… There … Continue reading Why We Are Sad- an original post I’ve re blogged…I’m addressing this subject from the point of view of ‘the other side’
Brain in bloom… let it be! Grow potatoes in a bathtub you saw discarded on a street corner, and brought home in order to turn it into a marvellous potato and salad patch! What drives me to write, why do I care? Because I have to write in order to maintain a safe distance between … Continue reading What Mind-in-Motion is all about
What are your biggest challenges? Due to this being a challenging prompt to answer. I have started things off with some delightful fractal colour My biggest challenges? I’d say one of my biggest challenges I’ve struggled with in life for many years now, is the task of acceptance and presenting to the world the ‘true’ … Continue reading Question of the day time, round 1 of 2024
I may have learnt (and written about!) many techniques and strategies to manage my personality disorder, but that doesn’t mean that I’m magically … My Overwhelming Reality of BPD
2023 was a year wherein I was still asleep Slumbering through the nightmare Of all things lost, and now not there I’d lost my ability to even weep The suffering had become so normal When I began to become aware The realisation was such a scare Like id woken up dismembered on a train track … Continue reading 2023
Here’s what science shows can help keep us on track. We’ve crossed the threshold into a new decade. There’s a lot of resolution advice swirling, but … 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health A re-blog of an article I found to be most useful and could help many more people out there, struggling with … Continue reading 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health
What’s life if I cannot breathe, When the trees and the leaves Just hang still, With no breeze? What’s life if I cannot see? Past the mask that I wear To exist as anyone but me? Who’s with me when I stop and think, And I ask through the mask For some answer, but just … Continue reading Poem time- What is life when it isn’t me?
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http://www.instagram.com/reel/C1VK7Wio3tV/Click the link above to watch the heartfelt music played by a veteran survivor of suicide. The words speak of strength and determination, championing the dreadful pain and desolation which comes with Suicide- be it ideation, full planning, to the attempts themselves, whereby you literally will endure some of the most horrendous pain and struggling … Continue reading Finding the light- End suicide app awareness
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Credit for image to Linda CJ Turner In the intricate world of the pathological covert narcissistic personality, passive-aggressive tactics take center stage as tools for manipulation, … “Disarming the Adversary: Unmasking Covert Narcissistic Tactics” Credit to: Linda CJ Turner Healingfromestrangement.Wordpress.com Link for Linda’s website
My best friend, mother, teacher and guardian angel ❤️ I actually wrote this post back on 10th December, I wrote it from my hospital bed, and I wrote it with passion and sheer gratitude that I’d had a mother like you to help teach me incredibly important lessons in life (as well as Art!) It … Continue reading Gratitude and lessons which took a while in the learning!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGeFVaqMY/ Christmas 2023- The magic of the day id forgotten was even around the corner, shocked me by how wonderful it was!
Format:B - Piano Man (Uto Karem Remix) [Formatik] by UTO KAREM on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/uto-karem/format-b-piano-man-uto-karem https://on.soundcloud.com/JAjHybf7DzhmZKLS6 Have thyself a good lil' rave!
2. Guns Like Toys by -King Porter Stomp- on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/king-porter-stomp/2-guns-like-toys https://on.soundcloud.com/cbRHev7kUCtSMPhVA -Listen to this on SoundCloud, it's very poignant, and the artists so talented.
Put Down Your Weapons by -King Porter Stomp- on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/king-porter-stomp/put-down-your-weapons Put down your weapons by King Porter Stomp - Listen and move your body as you feel you want. On SoundCloud.
Addiction buries us and totally destroys an individual and those they love. Getting out of the web of addiction can be attainable only if the addict …Rising From The Dead
**In honor of September being Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month, I will be focusing my blog posts on Suicide Prevention & Education. The topic …Suicide Prevention & Education: Debunking the Myths
Blue Bird - Georgie Lucas (edited) by MrDavid on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/mrdavid/blue-bird-georgie-lucas-edited Not only gorgeous vocals wise, but the lyrics may indeed resonate for many of you listen closely Blue Bird
Try me now… I’ve made some of the bravest decisions in my life, and broken chains which I never imagined I could even attempt to loosen. I’ve learned, and yes I’ve changed. But really, I hadn’t actually changed who I really was. I just changed my response to fear, and speaking out for myself. Then I found myself again. Changed, but miraculously, still the same person I was before.
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▶️ Watch this reel https://fb.watch/p44A3YlFJP/?mibextid=UalRPS&fs=e&s=aEkTS0 Watch me: ‘Gaslighter’ 'Abuse'- What exactly constitutes this verb which everyone has surely heard about at some point in life? Some may be more fortunate to have only heard the word spoken in conversation, through stories told by survivors, people who know of survivors, stories and news reports you see … Continue reading ‘Gaslighter’
Writing Fanfiction in the worlds of Tolkien and Beyond!
Simple words about a complex life.
Growing Through Books, Defying Social Norms
A Journey of Mental Health Recovery
Writing Sparkle Books
Erotic stories for you
Curiosity is a Mental Wanderlust, and Mind Wandering is the process of connecting loose strings of creative thought.
Sometimes You Just Gotta Laugh
Our thoughts define us, so let's focus on a few.
Kinda a poet. Kinda a writer. But not really...
writer. rythmn seeker.
Chaos may Surround you, but Clarity is your Breakthrough.
"Most all of us are mad round here..."
Every step for a brighter path
Mind-in-motion 