Category: reflections

The addiction must go; the person must stay.

I have no interest in commenting on the Reiner family tragedy. Nick Reiner has only been charged and is presumed innocent at this point. I know next …The addiction must go; the person must stay.

PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW

A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW →

REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’

SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017-  DANCINGWITHENVELOPES  Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’ →

Does a Politics and Philosophy graduate vote?

Do you vote in political elections? Absolutely… But why? Exactly. I’m literally refusing to let myself get into the topic of how I bring myself to do it. I’m still paying off my student debt to convince myself why I should or should not vote… and that’s ridiculous. I have qualified in the Art of … Continue reading Does a Politics and Philosophy graduate vote? →

Step it up a notch

Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…

WRITER’S BLOCK

A.K.A Survivor’s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasons… This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been ‘unable’ … Continue reading WRITER’S BLOCK →

Garden for your thoughts…

This post was written by myself, and published first on my first ever blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- on 10th August 2017. Introduction: Reflective insights into various journaled moments throughout different periods of lived experience, across the years, may be utilised via a type of spoken word time travel, to reveal truth and experience still very much valid … Continue reading Garden for your thoughts… →

Salvaging the sails

This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails →

I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’…

Am I ‘allowed’ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?💙‘It’s okay not to be okay’💚 I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a question… self doubt’s reliable ‘on’ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’… →

Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates →

Daily prompt- easy to answer !

How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals? Sorry for the lack of divinity or sophistication which I fail today to apply to this daily question- Oh shock horror- we noticed life was pretty brutal and reacted accordingly, send down your miracles then. The ‘plethora of the vocab’ is … Continue reading Daily prompt- easy to answer ! →

When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.

My case against Hull Royal Ward 100, is and has been so mentally exhausting, that I've been unable to find the head space, mental and physical resilience, that would be required of myself alone to come up with the best legal and comprehensive, crucially raised and exposed- not to harm the NHS as a National … Continue reading When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure. →

Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!

Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between us… What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? I’m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion! →

Making sense

I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel trauma’s pretence I’ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devil’s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense →

Why Care?

Prove this wrong! Why care?  Sometimes to even manage to care is in itself a tremendous challenge, and from a very basic level, there is your first reason to pursue caring- because to be unable to do so is so very torturous, and certainly a place you don’t want to remain shackled within.  So care … Continue reading Why Care? →

Why the fuck did I think that!?

Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!? →

The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all.

One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldn’t say the words ‘help’ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all. →

10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger.

Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!

A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.

I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives. →

Disclaimer- This post might cause problems

Psychedelics- I need your help (I think) A disclaimer:I don’t mean to be insensitive, I’m just really not capable of thinking without speaking first. So a good question was asked: Do blind people get the same trippy visuals when taking mushrooms? Furthermore: The real question is that when deaf people get voices in their head … Continue reading Disclaimer- This post might cause problems →

Sketch your emotions free

Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free →

Mother, remember

Remember how you always loved to play those beautiful songs on the piano at home? How, my earliest memories of you, from the infancy of a toddler, are captured in sacred pictures and sounds, remember… I watched you in wonder, playing Canon in D, as you played, your talent moved deeply, the core of my … Continue reading Mother, remember →

Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters

Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes don’t we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: ‘Fuck off, I ain’t staying strong, I’m falling apart, and I’m too damn tired out to do strong, I’m too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters →

Zodiac projections- just for fun, where does the Gemini ‘fit’?

Hmmm… Hi, I’m a Gemini, and whilst playing a piano , I have managed also, to become distracted by something on saw on Facebook… Already, I think it’s possible to predict how this Gemini’s Tuesday morning tangent is going! 😂 Whilst in the middle of playing improvised songs on my piano (well keyboard, but still, … Continue reading Zodiac projections- just for fun, where does the Gemini ‘fit’? →

Allow me to be contrary about this question…

How do you feel about cold weather? How do I feel about ‘cold’ weather.? Did you know for a start, there is no such thing as ‘cold’, just an absence of heat? You’re welcome- I’m available to defy and to confuse Ona regular basis! Returning to the point: How do I feel about ‘weather’ whereby … Continue reading Allow me to be contrary about this question… →

Mania and insomnia take on Facebook adverts, for a ‘night’…

Just to clarify, this was never how I intended my life to turn out, but here I am, post crisis-pad intervention, distracting the emotional meltdowns which threaten my own safety keeping faculties, because of lacking options to exist otherwise. Sometimes, I can actually do other things to avoid the consequences of even trying to close … Continue reading Mania and insomnia take on Facebook adverts, for a ‘night’… →

Things I shouldn’t say

What do you wish you could do more every day? Honestly? I’d have to go with the answer indulging in the daily indulgence of pure Ecstasy every day. I do have other less controversial answers, but I’m going with this honest one, because, you know, Ecstasy! Yay I’m talking pure 90s rave era level, of … Continue reading Things I shouldn’t say →

An introductory video to Empathy

Find empathy for the planet and non human creatures difficult? https://youtu.be/p7LDk4D3Q3U?si=mhI2D5fpu1PWNiPY -YouTube animation credit: Steve Cutts For some, Empathy comes almost too easily, which can be problematic and world full of Narcissists. Many of us won’t even know where we stand, label wise, between the polar opposites of the ‘Empath’ or the ‘Narcissist’. That’s absolutely … Continue reading An introductory video to Empathy →

How to ask a question which gives the ‘questioned’, some worrying doomsday impression!

What is the last thing you learned? Excuse me, my heart is still beating, therefore, I’m not at my ‘last’ yet! The LAST? Taking this question too literally is a recipe for disaster! It was only an innocent daily prompt, but my word, if you took this one to heart, you’d be worrying your days … Continue reading How to ask a question which gives the ‘questioned’, some worrying doomsday impression! →

Daily ‘answers’ (can be mood dependent) to daily questions, let’s go!

You're writing your autobiography. What's your opening sentence? I’d be pretty straight up about it, I think: ‘I come in peace, but forewarn you, that as a result of reading my autobiography, you may wind up requiring psychiatric intervention, strong medication, therapy, a year of sleep to deal with the intensely eventful, chaotic, philosophical, tangent … Continue reading Daily ‘answers’ (can be mood dependent) to daily questions, let’s go! →

Declaration against my defeat

No, ‘life’, you still haven’t stopped me. I might have been crushed, but I am a soul with the ‘chaos within to give rise to a dancing star‘ to quote Nietzsche, and my energy, compressed… apparently (I’ve noticed, after observing the survival of my intact soul, after countless afflictions, and attacks, have tried to dim … Continue reading Declaration against my defeat →

The warrior and the shield

Life can be tough, I’m sure we can all agree. Sure it’s got its beautiful moments and even years, too, but we go through life, and despite individual differences in specific circumstances, we are on a battlefield, always. You can’t afford to let your guard down, neither can you afford to simply hide away from … Continue reading The warrior and the shield →

Anyone with any sense will understand my reaction to such a question

What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months? I’ll keep it short and sweet for once. Life is incredibly unpredictable. Biggest challenge I’ll face in the next six months? How. The. Fuck Would I know!? Daily prompt, I am starting to question your integrity. Even my crystal ball can’t cooperate … Continue reading Anyone with any sense will understand my reaction to such a question →

Our last goodbye

I never, ever, thought I’d have to say goodbye to you, my Mum, so soon and so unexpectedly, unfairly and incomprehensibly, as I did. You were more than my world, you were more than an Art Teacher, Mother, Wife, last surviving sibling of the two, and daughter to your own parents. More than a friend, … Continue reading Our last goodbye →

DBVT- Day before Valentine’s Day poem challenge

I am inclined towards believing the theme here in on love, then… Once, thus far, in my lifetime as it flows, I have felt the force of love, undefineable, divine. The kind that only the fortunate, lucky soul knows, and I can only wish to feel one day again. Beautiful, growing and rebounding, like an … Continue reading DBVT- Day before Valentine’s Day poem challenge →

Daily Prompt… You are filthy! What a thing to ask!

What were your parents doing at your age? Haha! Is this a bit of a trick question!? I just so happened to find this (actually rather lovely) Photo Booth moment shared by my parents, taken in my birth year, 1990… Let’s see, while I’m 33 now, and my Mum had me either age 32 or … Continue reading Daily Prompt… You are filthy! What a thing to ask! →

You get some really great, amazing news. What’s the first thing you do?

Question of day prompt You know what, this question is so broad and open ended, that, as a Philosopher trapped inside an idiot’s mind, I’m probably going to have to just make this a quick answer. Because; it’s 7.15 am, and I’ve been thinking so much about so bloody much, all night, that I am … Continue reading You get some really great, amazing news. What’s the first thing you do? →

Favourite Candy?

What's your favorite candy? But it’s not actually the lollipop love im implying… Wanna really know? Of course, a you are a Cat, therefore my leader Why, it’s Candy Crush of course! The one and only ‘candy’ champion! The best type of Candy- you can sit there in all kinds of scenarios, for example; -Having … Continue reading Favourite Candy? →

Happy heavenly birthday to my beautiful and wonderful Mum- Shân Neves

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The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’

It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’ →

To all the lost, the survivors, the families the friends. My mental health is a journey, I too must pursue.

I want to take your hand in mine, then together, try and pull us through. A photo taken when i travelled in India… I think it fits well with the topic I realised it’s going to take more than just written words and spoken testimonies, which match like mirrors, the same actions others have tried … Continue reading To all the lost, the survivors, the families the friends. My mental health is a journey, I too must pursue. →

You’ve got questions, well I’ve got answers

List five things you do for fun. Do you want the funny version first, or the serious one? Don’t worry, you don’t even have to choose, I think I know what you want… So does this duck or goose (seriously, I can’t tell) 1. I like to host a weekly support group for misunderstood house … Continue reading You’ve got questions, well I’ve got answers →

Losing and then finding yourself

You’re still there- no matter how lost you are ‘I’ve lost myself trying to please everyone else… Now I’m losing everyone and finding myself’ -Words written by a friend on a journey towards recovery The words of this friend got to me and moved me in quite a way. I’m sure I’m not alone in … Continue reading Losing and then finding yourself →

Question of the day is upon us

Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc. A hint for what my research uncovered… What an interesting question of the day… The meaning of a name- this one feels deeply spiritual At first, I was a bit reluctant to search into this, because I was worried that by researching the answer to … Continue reading Question of the day is upon us →

‘Do you need money’?

God, doesn’t the sight of it just make you mad you can’t just reach into this still image and grab it, so you can heat your home? I stumbled upon an interesting question posted by a group on Facebook called ‘Humble Quote’. The question: ‘Answer This QuestionWithoutSaying, Yeah, Yea, Yo, Yes, Yah, Yup, Yap, Yep,'DO … Continue reading ‘Do you need money’? →

The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health

The mental health crisis extends beyond treatment accessibility and quality, intersecting with justice and correctional systems with punitive … The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health I had to re-blog this brilliant post, as it addresses the key issues facing the future and the challenges which impact the widely and fatally underrepresented, ignored and … Continue reading The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health →

Shout out to all those unsung heroes- strangers who we wish we could find today, to thank properly for how they helped us in the past- *TW* (suicide, mentions of abuse, and self harm)

Helping hands don’t go forgotten Amidst all the chaos of self centred, or overwhelmed, blinkered eyes, who are so many of the people who daily, pass us by, heads tilted to the ground, eyes desperate to dart away when your own eyes come close to meeting their glare… There are a handful of faces, names … Continue reading Shout out to all those unsung heroes- strangers who we wish we could find today, to thank properly for how they helped us in the past- *TW* (suicide, mentions of abuse, and self harm) →

Evidence emerges to prove I have been ‘off my head’ without any need for drugs/alcohol, from the beginning. I was born this way!

‘Do I look high to you!? Never mind my new hat, you just focus on my question!’ And my Dad swears to me that he had fed me no alcohol before taking this picture…! ‘K hole? What K hole!?’ I’m listening to the heartbeat of this soft and soothing pile of pebbles!’ So I have … Continue reading Evidence emerges to prove I have been ‘off my head’ without any need for drugs/alcohol, from the beginning. I was born this way! →

Re-blogging an upload in rebellion- Tales from the Psych Ward, how to find the comedy within

mindinmotion.home.blog/2023/12/20/tales-from-the-psych-ward-hilarious-ways-to-disturb-your-11-constant/ I don't know why the original publication of this post hasn't uploaded properly, but here is a link to access it! I assure you, it is worth the effort!

Narcissistic abuse, as experienced from a male perspective

Speaking about experiences of abuse of any kind- this is a post alluding to how it affects both men and women, with a personal male account from my own Dad

Question of the day!

What could you do differently? Honestly, I could just write much shorter posts for once. I dare myself…! Totally unrelated. Just had to include this because of the degree of cute he emits!

What Mind-in-Motion is all about

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Brain in bloom… let it be! Grow potatoes in a bathtub you saw discarded on a street corner, and brought home in order to turn it into a marvellous potato and salad patch! What drives me to write, why do I care? Because I have to write in order to maintain a safe distance between … Continue reading What Mind-in-Motion is all about →

Question of the day- What would my sign say?

If you had a freeway billboard, what would it say? Just add words… Well… This is one of those prompts which you endeavour to write a post responding to it, with greater confidence in the first few seconds whereby you throw yourself into the challenge of answering, because it sounds easier to answer before you … Continue reading Question of the day- What would my sign say? →

Question of the day time, round 1 of 2024

What are your biggest challenges? Due to this being a challenging prompt to answer. I have started things off with some delightful fractal colour My biggest challenges? I’d say one of my biggest challenges I’ve struggled with in life for many years now, is the task of acceptance and presenting to the world the ‘true’ … Continue reading Question of the day time, round 1 of 2024 →

Re-blog of a post I resonate with deeply, as I’m sure others will too: My Overwhelming Reality of BPD

I may have learnt (and written about!) many techniques and strategies to manage my personality disorder, but that doesn’t mean that I’m magically … My Overwhelming Reality of BPD

2023

2023 was a year wherein I was still asleep Slumbering through the nightmare Of all things lost, and now not there I’d lost my ability to even weep The suffering had become so normal When I began to become aware The realisation was such a scare Like id woken up dismembered on a train track … Continue reading 2023 →

The confession chamber

Again, I have reposted this from my old WordPress blog The Confession Chamber A hidden listener sits there, behind an opaque screen, for anonymity. It doesn’t really matter, where about in space and time, environmental context, churches or pretext, that this listener is situated. The point is, there is an ear, a receiver, and anyone … Continue reading The confession chamber →

Political parody – A call to action to address the real issues of mental health

‘Order, order, in the house!’ The MPs jeer, MPs gloat Eventually, they take their seats Mr Speaker, after all, he calls the shots You may hear the PM clear his throat They might well be thinking, as speeches are prepared Our people are fuming But we can still talk and scheme and scam Do we … Continue reading Political parody – A call to action to address the real issues of mental health →

Poem time- What is life when it isn’t me?

What’s life if I cannot breathe, When the trees and the leaves Just hang still, With no breeze? What’s life if I cannot see? Past the mask that I wear To exist as anyone but me? Who’s with me when I stop and think, And I ask through the mask For some answer, but just … Continue reading Poem time- What is life when it isn’t me? →