Potion for your Mind’s Motion- Art, Comedy, Mental Health, Imperfect poems, Lived Experience Stories, Advice (good and bad)
A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW
SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017- DANCINGWITHENVELOPES Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’
Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…
A.K.A Survivor’s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasons… This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been ‘unable’ … Continue reading WRITER’S BLOCK
This post was written by myself, and published first on my first ever blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- on 10th August 2017. Introduction: Reflective insights into various journaled moments throughout different periods of lived experience, across the years, may be utilised via a type of spoken word time travel, to reveal truth and experience still very much valid … Continue reading Garden for your thoughts…
Originally written and published on 6th April 2018, on my earlier blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com Hidden, lie the unseen branches Vanished, now- unseen green bloom Deathly claws frosting, winter’s gloom Tender, stems sleep, beneath chill moon Fallow, the heart of a breathless Earth Yet still come the brave, to spear through Ice glazed armour You will see … Continue reading The Green Mist
This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails
Am I ‘allowed’ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?💙‘It’s okay not to be okay’💚 I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a question… self doubt’s reliable ‘on’ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’…
New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates
http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling ‘old’ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought I’d live to see
Air blows soft over sunning skin I ache to tell you how the birds here sing Catching myself, silly, Of course you know You’re always here Six years past that final Solstice All those new Suns, cycling between our last kiss In alignment with outdoor’s great birdsong I call out your name I call it … Continue reading Your Name is a Soundwave
Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now I’m locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier ‘life‘ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtain’s drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise
How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals? Sorry for the lack of divinity or sophistication which I fail today to apply to this daily question- Oh shock horror- we noticed life was pretty brutal and reacted accordingly, send down your miracles then. The ‘plethora of the vocab’ is … Continue reading Daily prompt- easy to answer !
Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: ‘Hitting Rock Bottom’, what do you think of? ‘Rock bottom’- in reference to a ‘place’ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping
“Mind in Motion” When shadows rise and silence calls, When hope feels lost behind these walls, Let not your heart give in to fear, For even now, the light is near. The road may twist, the path may break, Yet every step is one we take. No fall too great, no night too long, We … Continue reading Mind In Motion
I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or two… or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! ❤️
It ain’t easy. The sickness, the pain, the constant beeping of machines, the absolute thunder bolt of a shock when you recover enough to realise, your mind is active with hundreds of tabs open at once, you are more capable of movement, you are glad to be feeling like you’re recovering, but oh what to … Continue reading Another day in hospital, finding something to do…
Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between us… What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? I’m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!
I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel trauma’s pretence I’ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devil’s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense
If you want to re-connect with your roots, re-acquaint yourself with nature, and generally remind yourself about what it means to live, to be human (and therefore crafty, inquisitive, ambitious), then I strongly recommend you take some time to just have a little dig. Uproot some Dandelions, or a bit of your lawn. Expose the soil, … Continue reading Put your hands back in the Earth
I creep into a tangle Mildly plucked, I’ve spun forsooth, a silvered web Draped in need, Dressed in lust, and endeavour Sparkling eyes. Look how she tries, endlessly tries Let’s douse oneself, Submerge ourselves In dancing, we’re disguised from Expectation’s hollow cries I once hopped here, swirled in spiral Trickled like a breeze Upon an … Continue reading Spinning in spiral
Snippets of snoppits- a whip-de-wewoo A little love from one’s aspiring. Psychedelic self ❤️ A work in progress… Suggestions welcome! Auricular acupuncture steampunk twist ear TBC…
Prove this wrong! Why care? Sometimes to even manage to care is in itself a tremendous challenge, and from a very basic level, there is your first reason to pursue caring- because to be unable to do so is so very torturous, and certainly a place you don’t want to remain shackled within. So care … Continue reading Why Care?
Sent from the Wisdom app.
Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?
A poem written by myself 19/10/2024 A place To Fly I have pictures, like paper trials, of a mind, absconded Words can be my muse, but they can deceive and confuse In sketches, the wrought iron gate, whereby the words keep watch, under key, late… A head filled with secret salubrity, ideas, overgrown trenches, sodden … Continue reading A Place To Fly…
One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldn’t say the words ‘help’ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all.
Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGevAG7E3/ Now that I'm doing the whole sober life thing (not that I ever truly needed chemical assistance to get on the floor and rave like the dance floor is the Lord/Lordess... Lordthey -!?- to which I devote divine worship to, religiously)... I sometimes (every day) miss partying and raving my tits off, like my … Continue reading Enable the (sober life) rave, get thy hose pipe to the garden floor!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!
I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
How would you describe yourself to someone who can't see you? The chance to reinvent a ‘description’ so suit some eyes that cannot see me… harder than it sounds, and you perhaps I’m not actually the one best qualified anyway… Wow, I’m trying to not overthink this or overanalyse the variables which I always feel … Continue reading Ooooohhh what a question!
Written by myself, a fellow warrior of the mental health lived experience debacle, and the journey of learning how to ‘win’… You don’t have to stay strong for everyone. You don’t even ‘have’ to stay strong as a command given to your own self alone… I think you can give yourself permission and validation to … Continue reading You don’t have to be ‘strong’ all the time…
Psychedelics- I need your help (I think) A disclaimer:I don’t mean to be insensitive, I’m just really not capable of thinking without speaking first. So a good question was asked: Do blind people get the same trippy visuals when taking mushrooms? Furthermore: The real question is that when deaf people get voices in their head … Continue reading Disclaimer- This post might cause problems
open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz Sia... 'I Forgive You' I never saw it coming, the electrifying, spine tingling and resonating enrapture, the awe, the gratitude and the falling in love with your music. https://open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz?si=nh3muKwPTES9jc61rj_VDA&pi=e-DQmbD5XdRECZ
Which activities make you lose track of time? What a question! 😂 I can’t tell whether it’s the track of time making me lose the activities or the activities making me lose track of time!? Because believe me, they all seem to! It’s been suggested many times I get assessed for ADHD… I have tried, … Continue reading Does ADHD class as an ‘activity’!?
Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free
Remember how you always loved to play those beautiful songs on the piano at home? How, my earliest memories of you, from the infancy of a toddler, are captured in sacred pictures and sounds, remember… I watched you in wonder, playing Canon in D, as you played, your talent moved deeply, the core of my … Continue reading Mother, remember
A short read reflecting on the gratitude I have for everything my late mother gave me while she was here, and after…
Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes don’t we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: ‘Fuck off, I ain’t staying strong, I’m falling apart, and I’m too damn tired out to do strong, I’m too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters
Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHD… Yeah so apparently, that’s me🫨😵💫🫣 Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! 😂🫣🎵 FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar ‘tomorrows’
*Delightful TW* (Because you have to add those two letters of the alphabet to anything real these days, don't you?) Credit to JoePolitics- Hilarious YouTube Video Link below: ⬇️⬇️⬇️ Fucking hilarious watch- JoePolitics Because I got High YouTube ⬆️⬆️⬆️ My own original comedy Artwork which fits this so perfectly The above comedy art sketch is … Continue reading You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend!
You won’t know until you know, or I’ve died trying to achieve an end which is for the greater good, particularly in terms of politics, philosophy, and end to globalised corruption, and the primary concern of helping others- most specifically in the dual circumstances of addiction and mental health- but what I’m finding out is … Continue reading A warning…
https://open.spotify.com/track/5GK4ax71sSIokiNEZsND3d?si=eUWfK-i3RCOiPpg7Igzu3w Above/or below at the end of this post , let’s find out... is a song which enabled be to rekindle the light of an identity within myself which I’d too frequently felt I could no longer discover again… I related to the first half of the song, for its harrowing, and spine tingling resonance … Continue reading Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
My go: I am the storm, replies the warrior, bellowing the words into the thunder of a roar which made time itself stand still.
For several soundless seasons passedI’ve searched my future, present, past I’m looking for the tools I hadBack in some age where days were glad I thought about the skills I had, and subsequently, I began to grope my mind Language would follow meThrough my daysThen help me translateThe joy and the wretched,The divine, the unknown,All … Continue reading Newly discovered old Poem
Just to clarify, this was never how I intended my life to turn out, but here I am, post crisis-pad intervention, distracting the emotional meltdowns which threaten my own safety keeping faculties, because of lacking options to exist otherwise. Sometimes, I can actually do other things to avoid the consequences of even trying to close … Continue reading Mania and insomnia take on Facebook adverts, for a ‘night’…
🥰 What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness? This question is useful beyond measure to a great degree, especially to fall back upon in times of deep struggles. When you’re in your darkest moments, it’s far from easy to just be able to pull up a list from your head, of any single … Continue reading The famous five… top everyday things that bring me happiness
⬇️⬇️⬇️ https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGemaV9av/ Still pissed off? Then you’re fucked. Because you shouldn’t be. Either that, or you’ve had an Epileptic Seizure, due to my lack of warning about photosensitivity content. In which case, you’re quite right to be pissed off. Sorry I’ve just set you back to point zero in waiting for that one year seizure … Continue reading Instant bad mood reversal for those who are ready to punch a fucking train, watch this
No ordinary scene was visited this day. At last, and without any inch of hesitation stopping me from my march towards this destination, I adamantly and resolutely walked through those hospital grounds, nothing and nobody would have been able to stop me. The Queens building, Castle Hill Hospital. Oncology, breast care. It did not take … Continue reading Visiting your spirit, alone. My return to the Queens building of Castle Hill Hospital, where the lonely suitcase still haunts me.
What makes you laugh? This time, the daily oracle answered thus- My own demise. It’s gone stage Mother of Dragons, pal! It can be so fucking bad it’s just plain funny. Then what do you do? Why, you laugh your way back to life! 🌈☮️😂 They said…
Hope is beginning to whisper reassurances back into my ears… Having actually been listened to by a different psychiatrist, it was agreed I would go for a short term inpatient treatment stay at one of the non-assessment wards, Mill View this time, so totally different experience to where I have been before, and gone through … Continue reading Hope to heal
Who is the most confident person you know? Guess my answer… The answer to this daily prompt question, asking, ‘who is the most confident person I know?’ Well, I reckon, that despite having had the privilege of meeting some incredibly confident people in my lifetime, and taking inspiration from the their unwavering shine, I find … Continue reading Tooting my own horn without shame 🎺🌈
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? What an apt daily question to ask, of someone who is officially ‘diagnosed’ as having C-PTSD, BPD, Major Depressive Illness, recurring eating disorders and a history of drug and alcohol addiction! You asked for this! Prepare yourselves for some disturbing answers, and hopefully, a few … Continue reading What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’!
Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.
Your Art and your afterlife Art that I drew and revived for you. I finished the Heart and butterflies drawing just seconds after midnight turned into Mother’s Day. That’s good timing for me, I’m usually not the timekeeping master of the century. But you knew that anyway… ❤️ Happy Mother’s Day Mum…. I lit my … Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day, I miss you 💜
Find empathy for the planet and non human creatures difficult? https://youtu.be/p7LDk4D3Q3U?si=mhI2D5fpu1PWNiPY -YouTube animation credit: Steve Cutts For some, Empathy comes almost too easily, which can be problematic and world full of Narcissists. Many of us won’t even know where we stand, label wise, between the polar opposites of the ‘Empath’ or the ‘Narcissist’. That’s absolutely … Continue reading An introductory video to Empathy
A seven minute read about real life Friday Nights (and the other days) mental health survival tactics… Warning- includes video of me actually singing due to loss of shame!
Writing Fanfiction in the worlds of Tolkien and Beyond!
Simple words about a complex life.
Growing Through Books, Defying Social Norms
A Journey of Mental Health Recovery
Writing Sparkle Books
Erotic stories for you
Curiosity is a Mental Wanderlust, and Mind Wandering is the process of connecting loose strings of creative thought.
Sometimes You Just Gotta Laugh
Our thoughts define us, so let's focus on a few.
Kinda a poet. Kinda a writer. But not really...
writer. rythmn seeker.
Chaos may Surround you, but Clarity is your Breakthrough.
"Most all of us are mad round here..."
Every step for a brighter path
Mind-in-motion 