What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’!

What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? What an apt daily question to ask, of someone who is officially ‘diagnosed’ as having C-PTSD, BPD, Major Depressive Illness, recurring eating disorders and a history of drug and alcohol addiction! You asked for this! Prepare yourselves for some disturbing answers, and hopefully, a few … Continue reading What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’! →

Flashbacks come, and flashbacks go. Just like imprints, in the snow.

Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.

Happy Mother’s Day, I miss you 💜

Your Art and your afterlife Art that I drew and revived for you. I finished the Heart and butterflies drawing just seconds after midnight turned into Mother’s Day. That’s good timing for me, I’m usually not the timekeeping master of the century. But you knew that anyway… ❤️ Happy Mother’s Day Mum…. I lit my … Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day, I miss you 💜 →

An introductory video to Empathy

Find empathy for the planet and non human creatures difficult? https://youtu.be/p7LDk4D3Q3U?si=mhI2D5fpu1PWNiPY -YouTube animation credit: Steve Cutts For some, Empathy comes almost too easily, which can be problematic and world full of Narcissists. Many of us won’t even know where we stand, label wise, between the polar opposites of the ‘Empath’ or the ‘Narcissist’. That’s absolutely … Continue reading An introductory video to Empathy →

Friday vibes from the perspective of a ‘lunatic’

A seven minute read about real life Friday Nights (and the other days) mental health survival tactics… Warning- includes video of me actually singing due to loss of shame!

Waking up on the Ground

‘The portal’ I just walked up to the small building, which houses the interior of a wonderland called ‘Ground’, which runs Art groups, as I’ve just been enlightened about. As it just so happened, I’d forgotten to ask the time and day the groups were actually on at the time I was told about them… … Continue reading Waking up on the Ground →

Declaration against my defeat

No, ‘life’, you still haven’t stopped me. I might have been crushed, but I am a soul with the ‘chaos within to give rise to a dancing star‘ to quote Nietzsche, and my energy, compressed… apparently (I’ve noticed, after observing the survival of my intact soul, after countless afflictions, and attacks, have tried to dim … Continue reading Declaration against my defeat →

The warrior and the shield

Life can be tough, I’m sure we can all agree. Sure it’s got its beautiful moments and even years, too, but we go through life, and despite individual differences in specific circumstances, we are on a battlefield, always. You can’t afford to let your guard down, neither can you afford to simply hide away from … Continue reading The warrior and the shield →

Top tips for people in dips- Save yourself from suicide

In crisis? You are definitely not alone. This post is not a cure all, just based on my own lived experiences with mental illness and suicidal crises, I hope that some of the ideas I’ve learned from myself and others, in order to survive, might be able help you when you need it so baby too. Please share the word of you can ❤️

Short poem, or lyrics in the making

Sometimes one feels lost, swept away, from the familiarities of days which felt happier, and it’s easy to miss what you once knew then, you can loathe and dread all the chaos of the unknown, when suddenly, days swamped you with sadness, and your next best direction feels like a cloak over your vision, of … Continue reading Short poem, or lyrics in the making →

Need some musical first aid today?

I’ve not published a bombardment of musical suggestions for some weeks now, and having re-discovered and newly discovered some new fabulous sounds, I felt compelled to share, in case anyone could do with some potential ‘sound plasters’ today, just as I very much do too! Emmy the great- Paper Forest (In the afterglow of rapture) … Continue reading Need some musical first aid today? →

Let’s unite for better mental health services

Mental health matters, so damn much! We need to do something to save ourselves, and our mental health systems in the UK…. If you don’t have time to read the full article, then please just tap this link and take 5 minutes to read the cause, then decide to sign or not. If you can … Continue reading Let’s unite for better mental health services →

Valium be my Valentine

*probably shouldn’t be using this GIF*TW? Too late I guess! ❤️❤️❤️ Haha oh the laughs to be had! How did you spend your Valentine’s Day Ellie? Why, I got admitted to a psych ward! Awww, I love you too, plastic mattress, let’s spend the night together! 😂😂😂❤️ Credit for song and lyrics to: Ava Max- … Continue reading Valium be my Valentine →

The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’

It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’ →