Potion for your Mind’s Motion- Art, Comedy, Mental Health, Imperfect poems, Lived Experience Stories, Advice (good and bad)
A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW
SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017- DANCINGWITHENVELOPES Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’
Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…
A.K.A Survivor’s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasons… This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been ‘unable’ … Continue reading WRITER’S BLOCK
Originally written and published on 6th April 2018, on my earlier blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com Hidden, lie the unseen branches Vanished, now- unseen green bloom Deathly claws frosting, winter’s gloom Tender, stems sleep, beneath chill moon Fallow, the heart of a breathless Earth Yet still come the brave, to spear through Ice glazed armour You will see … Continue reading The Green Mist
This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails
Am I ‘allowed’ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?💙‘It’s okay not to be okay’💚 I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a question… self doubt’s reliable ‘on’ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’…
New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates
http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling ‘old’ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought I’d live to see
Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now I’m locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier ‘life‘ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtain’s drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise
You ready? My Artwork here inspired by my late Mother Shân Neves… I chose it because it’s message and it’s theme fit my words in this creative, dark, alluring, artistic, fateful and literally- My work, and life, be a metamorphoses in progress… A snippet: ‘You, madame, your hands, with their white fair curling fingers, which … Continue reading I dared myself to write, in the style of a Shakespearean Quill
Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: ‘Hitting Rock Bottom’, what do you think of? ‘Rock bottom’- in reference to a ‘place’ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping
Word to describe myself? Tough one- but I’m going to go with ‘Spirited’ ‘Spirited’ I have not the audacity to call myself ‘unconquerable’, because, believe me, life has threatened and humbled my steadfast and passionate spirit with too many a persistent reminder, not to get ahead of myself, and to learn the (inconvenience of a … Continue reading One word to describe the cataclysm of a self that is I!?
Once, I was a butterfly, flapping vibrant wings- patterns swirling, circling, web-like threads of light. A storm of color, painted bold, that stunned the dawn's first golden sight. The buddleia marveled — we look like a supernova when she rests upon our blossoms, wings outstretched in gentle trust, soft against the morning hush. Sunlight spilled … Continue reading Once I Was
My case against Hull Royal Ward 100, is and has been so mentally exhausting, that I've been unable to find the head space, mental and physical resilience, that would be required of myself alone to come up with the best legal and comprehensive, crucially raised and exposed- not to harm the NHS as a National … Continue reading When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.
“Mind in Motion” When shadows rise and silence calls, When hope feels lost behind these walls, Let not your heart give in to fear, For even now, the light is near. The road may twist, the path may break, Yet every step is one we take. No fall too great, no night too long, We … Continue reading Mind In Motion
I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or two… or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! ❤️
Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between us… What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? I’m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!
I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel trauma’s pretence I’ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devil’s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense
Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?
Smiling is always possible again I know I’ve posted about this before, and rightly so. This time though I’m going to be more to the point, and the title has already basically said it all. All that’s left to add to it, is the highlight of the entire reason I’m still here to be writing … Continue reading How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life
Narcotics Anonymous- Although I guess I’m sacrificing my own anonymity here amusingly… I’ll happily proclaim my own identity, with pride and nothing near shame. Never would I break the anonymity of anyone besides myself, that goes without saying! I’m sharing an update that I posted to a support group for fellow warriors of recovery from … Continue reading We do return, and we do recover
More than just a ‘service’ So I admit it… Recently, I’ve had a great deal of negative and emotionally charged declarations of fury to spurt out in angry statements, regarding the NHS, and ‘the state of the present day failings’ which recent experiences may well have influenced in shaping my words. In fact, I’ve been … Continue reading Smiles rise across faces, like silent songs, hushing storms as they pass
Discuss, free souls… I am desperate hear your voice xxx
In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled? *First of all- Credit for the featured image set for this post goes to the wonderfully talented Artist Ella Dorson, who created the portrait of myself and my dog, blended spoken words exchanged between us beautifully, and used her Artwork of me alongside and part … Continue reading Hard work… Not a headline many people will warm to!
What's the best piece of advice you've ever received? I’ve received a lot of brilliant advice over time, and to be honest, it’s going to be way too difficult to narrow it down, so I’m just going to come out with a recent rather hilarious piece of advice I received courtesy of a mental health … Continue reading Best advice in small packages
One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldn’t say the words ‘help’ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all.
Mental Health No more tolerance for preventable mental health related deaths by Suicide, Homicide, Self Harm, lack of capacity to remain safe and/or protected by law and human rights to the dignity and equality of access to urgent and emergency care and intervention, to prevent tragedies- So many tragedies does our UK modern day era … Continue reading Pressing the issue further
Hell may burn but the light still stretches above without giving up on you, your children, or faith 🙏 Evie begins school… You weren’t even 1 year old here… Now you are a 4 year old schoolgirl… and I could not be more amazed, grateful and proud ❤️ Forget the darkness and pain I’ve endured … Continue reading More than just a silver lining
Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!
Top tips for people in blips - saving yourself from suicide,
A work in progress I’m creating as I too, travel along this life’s journey 🌈❤️
vm.tiktok.com/ZGevAG7E3/ Now that I'm doing the whole sober life thing (not that I ever truly needed chemical assistance to get on the floor and rave like the dance floor is the Lord/Lordess... Lordthey -!?- to which I devote divine worship to, religiously)... I sometimes (every day) miss partying and raving my tits off, like my … Continue reading Enable the (sober life) rave, get thy hose pipe to the garden floor!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!
I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
Written by myself, a fellow warrior of the mental health lived experience debacle, and the journey of learning how to ‘win’… You don’t have to stay strong for everyone. You don’t even ‘have’ to stay strong as a command given to your own self alone… I think you can give yourself permission and validation to … Continue reading You don’t have to be ‘strong’ all the time…
open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz Sia... 'I Forgive You' I never saw it coming, the electrifying, spine tingling and resonating enrapture, the awe, the gratitude and the falling in love with your music. https://open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz?si=nh3muKwPTES9jc61rj_VDA&pi=e-DQmbD5XdRECZ
Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free
A short read reflecting on the gratitude I have for everything my late mother gave me while she was here, and after…
http://www.instagram.com/p/Cz9LWK3Mzmm/ ⬆️⬆️🌈💜🎵 Check out the Instagram page of the official above link, it is amazing, the creator talks about struggles with mental health, Bipolar Disorder more specifically, what it's like to live with them, in perfect but simple little images, and somehow manages to capture both the exact means of expressing something myself, and I'm … Continue reading Check this person out, she is amazing, in pictures and for real! ⬇️💜
Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes don’t we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: ‘Fuck off, I ain’t staying strong, I’m falling apart, and I’m too damn tired out to do strong, I’m too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters
Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHD… Yeah so apparently, that’s me🫨😵💫🫣 Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! 😂🫣🎵 FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar ‘tomorrows’
What does "having it all" mean to you? Is it attainable? On ‘attaining it all’ Can it be done? My view: To ‘have it all’, is a misconception of any aspiration, throughout human history and everything we can ever learn and experience, whilst riding out the vast storm, a turbulence of life, tumultuous plus unpredictably … Continue reading ‘Having it all’ means having closeness to ‘no more’
*Delightful TW* (Because you have to add those two letters of the alphabet to anything real these days, don't you?) Credit to JoePolitics- Hilarious YouTube Video Link below: ⬇️⬇️⬇️ Fucking hilarious watch- JoePolitics Because I got High YouTube ⬆️⬆️⬆️ My own original comedy Artwork which fits this so perfectly The above comedy art sketch is … Continue reading You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend!
POV: When you ring the crisis team Added original art by self which fits quite well with the above video: See my Gallery Page for more! Absolutely correct!
https://open.spotify.com/track/5GK4ax71sSIokiNEZsND3d?si=eUWfK-i3RCOiPpg7Igzu3w Above/or below at the end of this post , let’s find out... is a song which enabled be to rekindle the light of an identity within myself which I’d too frequently felt I could no longer discover again… I related to the first half of the song, for its harrowing, and spine tingling resonance … Continue reading Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
My go: I am the storm, replies the warrior, bellowing the words into the thunder of a roar which made time itself stand still.
I don’t care anymore about holding back, this is what ‘Great Britain’ looks like today, I am not scared to share situations which others will resonate with, silently. Confession time: Yeah, cheers government emergency crisis loan, I actually ended up using the £348 you to pay for my suicide. Rather than use it for the … Continue reading How about this for a bit of raw reality, shed a little light on ‘Great Britain’s’ plight
Listen to this song: https://open.spotify.com/track/05P2XnfYsMtbvajPRcLTzO?si=YkwkLWOwRMCzMyVC-DYRPA&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A3wiZZCpwpuuz3buVj9VkoF Obviously applies to all genders. Cock or the Pea- You’re both who I’m talking about! Fuck them off because if you have that niggling worry that your partner is a secret twat, you’re probably right, so for God’s sake, Dance your path away from them. Don’t ever be afraid to … Continue reading Worried you might be in a relationship with a cunt, but can’t quite hear your own intuition?
🥰 What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness? This question is useful beyond measure to a great degree, especially to fall back upon in times of deep struggles. When you’re in your darkest moments, it’s far from easy to just be able to pull up a list from your head, of any single … Continue reading The famous five… top everyday things that bring me happiness
If you could be a character from a book or film, who would you be? Why? An icon of pure strength, sexy, stubborn, fiercely intelligent. Like a phoenix, Seven embarks upon a journey of rediscovering the ‘self’ after a hive mind ordeal, entrapment by Borg captivity, she had her individuality purged. Yet despite the darkness … Continue reading 7 of 9- The brilliant breaker of the Borg’s grasp, rescued by the crew of Star Trek Voyager
What makes you laugh? This time, the daily oracle answered thus- My own demise. It’s gone stage Mother of Dragons, pal! It can be so fucking bad it’s just plain funny. Then what do you do? Why, you laugh your way back to life! 🌈☮️😂 They said…
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? What an apt daily question to ask, of someone who is officially ‘diagnosed’ as having C-PTSD, BPD, Major Depressive Illness, recurring eating disorders and a history of drug and alcohol addiction! You asked for this! Prepare yourselves for some disturbing answers, and hopefully, a few … Continue reading What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’!
The woman I keep on becoming (we never cease to adapt, aspire, and amaze) Women: (We already know what I’m about to say, oh, we know) But y’know, in light of #internationalwomen’sday 2024, I’ll say a few words. We are not just warriors, who have endured any such a Blitzkrieg- that purposefully, may cause a … Continue reading In celebration of international women’s day
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Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain. Say what? ‘So, I must ask you Ellie, how come someone who’s got a University Degree and a brain like yours ended up an addict who’s also been sectioned on a mental health ward?!’ The question itself is easy and funny to answer if I’m … Continue reading Oh I Love this for a daily Question!
You're writing your autobiography. What's your opening sentence? I’d be pretty straight up about it, I think: ‘I come in peace, but forewarn you, that as a result of reading my autobiography, you may wind up requiring psychiatric intervention, strong medication, therapy, a year of sleep to deal with the intensely eventful, chaotic, philosophical, tangent … Continue reading Daily ‘answers’ (can be mood dependent) to daily questions, let’s go!
Writing Fanfiction in the worlds of Tolkien and Beyond!
Simple words about a complex life.
Growing Through Books, Defying Social Norms
A Journey of Mental Health Recovery
Writing Sparkle Books
Erotic stories for you
Curiosity is a Mental Wanderlust, and Mind Wandering is the process of connecting loose strings of creative thought.
Sometimes You Just Gotta Laugh
Our thoughts define us, so let's focus on a few.
Kinda a poet. Kinda a writer. But not really...
writer. rythmn seeker.
Chaos may Surround you, but Clarity is your Breakthrough.
"Most all of us are mad round here..."
Every step for a brighter path
Mind-in-motion 