WRITERโ€™S BLOCK

A.K.A Survivorโ€™s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasonsโ€ฆ This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been โ€˜unableโ€™ … Continue reading WRITERโ€™S BLOCK

I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โ€˜selfโ€™โ€ฆ

Am I โ€˜allowedโ€™ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?๐Ÿ’™โ€˜Itโ€™s okay not to be okayโ€™๐Ÿ’š I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a questionโ€ฆ self doubtโ€™s reliable โ€˜onโ€™ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โ€˜selfโ€™โ€ฆ

Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

Unwitting descents causeโ€™ itโ€™s the law- A poem about incarceration and freedom

My own original Artwork- On Prison abolition- a poetic expression to share a viewpoint Throughout lifeโ€™s glinted Halls of Ivy Where sections, two, to section three Plus 136, 54, 52 Impound the freedom you thought you knew Primed in cuffs, restraints and force Unwilling, you face oppressionโ€™s source Extra curricular, custodial schools Unwitting descents, versed … Continue reading Unwitting descents causeโ€™ itโ€™s the law- A poem about incarceration and freedom

Making sense

I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel traumaโ€™s pretence Iโ€™ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devilโ€™s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense

Why the fuck did I think that!?

Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th Decemberโ€ฆ. Iโ€™d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?

Absolutely no chance do I โ€˜trust my instinctsโ€™!

Do you trust your instincts? Would YOU trust this personโ€™s instincts!? Exactly as I thought- NOT A CHANCE ๐Ÿคฃ Seriously though, no I do not trust my instincts! I maybe once thought I could, and subsequently made the error of trusting them in years gone byโ€ฆ But if only you could see the train wreck … Continue reading Absolutely no chance do I โ€˜trust my instinctsโ€™!

Hard workโ€ฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!

In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled? *First of all- Credit for the featured image set for this post goes to the wonderfully talented Artist Ella Dorson, who created the portrait of myself and my dog, blended spoken words exchanged between us beautifully, and used her Artwork of me alongside and part … Continue reading Hard workโ€ฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!

The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they โ€˜fadeโ€™โ€ฆ My song which was not โ€˜my lastโ€™ after all.

One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldnโ€™t say the words โ€˜helpโ€™ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they โ€˜fadeโ€™โ€ฆ My song which was not โ€˜my lastโ€™ after all.

Oh behold all the fucks I give!

vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!

Worried you might be in a relationship with a cunt, but canโ€™t quite hear your own intuition?

Listen to this song: https://open.spotify.com/track/05P2XnfYsMtbvajPRcLTzO?si=YkwkLWOwRMCzMyVC-DYRPA&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A3wiZZCpwpuuz3buVj9VkoF Obviously applies to all genders. Cock or the Pea- Youโ€™re both who Iโ€™m talking about! Fuck them off because if you have that niggling worry that your partner is a secret twat, youโ€™re probably right, so for Godโ€™s sake, Dance your path away from them. Donโ€™t ever be afraid to … Continue reading Worried you might be in a relationship with a cunt, but canโ€™t quite hear your own intuition?

FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts

We will see where this goes So yeah, you may have stumbled upon my posts which pertain to serious intent upon giving up. I still feel deeply afflicted by the pain of knowing I could have, and would have, fulfilled a potential, helped others through my lived experiences, go on to be one of the … Continue reading FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts

I am a disgrace, and my field of fucks is barren. This is my Potential farewell.

Absolute TW on this one, donโ€™t read it if you think your biggest threat to life and stability might be dark humour which mentions matters of mental health specifically. Many people may well be outraged. But you canโ€™t say โ€˜outrageโ€™ without the inclusion of the โ€˜outโ€™, and so use that paradox to find your way … Continue reading I am a disgrace, and my field of fucks is barren. This is my Potential farewell.

Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- youโ€™re even killing me.

Literally tell the mental health professionals on a psychiatric ward, I need some help, Iโ€™m on the verge of my final goodbye letterโ€ฆ โ€˜alright then goodnight, out of the lounge, we have to clean nowโ€™โ€ฆ โ€˜Iโ€™m scared I might dieโ€™ โ€˜Alright Iโ€™ll help you unlock your room.โ€™ Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me? Iโ€™m not attention … Continue reading Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- youโ€™re even killing me.

Narcissistic abuse, as experienced from a male perspective

Speaking about experiences of abuse of any kind- this is a post alluding to how it affects both men and women, with a personal male account from my own Dad

Abuse and the brain

Image credit to Linda CJ Turner In the field of neuroscience, the concept of neuronal survival and death is complex and can be influenced by various factors. Neurons are the โ€ฆ Abuse and the brain- credit to Linda CJ Turner Website: Linda CJ Turner website Wow. As a passionately curious individual concerning Neurology, and how … Continue reading Abuse and the brain

โ€˜Gaslighterโ€™

โ–ถ๏ธ Watch this reel https://fb.watch/p44A3YlFJP/?mibextid=UalRPS&fs=e&s=aEkTS0 Watch me: โ€˜Gaslighterโ€™ 'Abuse'- What exactly constitutes this verb which everyone has surely heard about at some point in life? Some may be more fortunate to have only heard the word spoken in conversation, through stories told by survivors, people who know of survivors, stories and news reports you see … Continue reading โ€˜Gaslighterโ€™

A story told, through a face etched with transmutation, speaking without words

I can tell you a story, about a young womanโ€™s journey, using pictures in place of words, which span chapters, unwritten yet brimming with a story, telling of a 6 year progression of a journey, told through the time evidenced in alteration. The story starts in 2009, when I was first travelling around the world, … Continue reading A story told, through a face etched with transmutation, speaking without words