A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is todayโฆ Iโm finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldnโt even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW
Tag: #Healing
Keep moving forward and keep your mind in motion, it assists and enables your healing.
REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE โUPโ
SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT โThis too shall passโ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017- DANCINGWITHENVELOPES Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasnโt under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE โUPโ
Garden for your thoughtsโฆ
This post was written by myself, and published first on my first ever blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- on 10th August 2017. Introduction: Reflective insights into various journaled moments throughout different periods of lived experience, across the years, may be utilised via a type of spoken word time travel, to reveal truth and experience still very much valid … Continue reading Garden for your thoughtsโฆ
The Green Mist
Originally written and published on 6th April 2018, on my earlier blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com Hidden, lie the unseen branches Vanished, now- unseen green bloom Deathly claws frosting, winterโs gloom Tender, stems sleep, beneath chill moon Fallow, the heart of a breathless Earth Yet still come the brave, to spear through Ice glazed armour You will see … Continue reading The Green Mist
Salvaging the sails
This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if โpractice makes perfectโ, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails
I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โselfโโฆ
Am I โallowedโ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?๐โItโs okay not to be okayโ๐ I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a questionโฆ self doubtโs reliable โonโ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โselfโโฆ
Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates
New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates
The birthday I never thought Iโd live to see
http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling โoldโ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought Iโd live to see
Your Name is a Soundwave
Air blows soft over sunning skin I ache to tell you how the birds here sing Catching myself, silly, Of course you know Youโre always here Six years past that final Solstice All those new Suns, cycling between our last kiss In alignment with outdoorโs great birdsong I call out your name I call it … Continue reading Your Name is a Soundwave
The disease of addiction- We came to realise
Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now Iโm locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier โlifeโ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtainโs drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise
I practice Spirituality, not religion ๐ฒ
Do you practice religion? No Why? Because I am Spiritual Thereโs a reason behind everything. If you can listen to me, I can elaborate; Reasons aplenty, so people respond and react to certain words and โdefinitionsโ, because the truth is- Language seems to be one, of many, assets which humans do possess , which enable … Continue reading I practice Spirituality, not religion ๐ฒ
Slipping as I am gripping
Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: โHitting Rock Bottomโ, what do you think of? โRock bottomโ- in reference to a โplaceโ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping
One word to describe the cataclysm of a self that is I!?
Word to describe myself? Tough one- but Iโm going to go with โSpiritedโ โSpiritedโ I have not the audacity to call myself โunconquerableโ, because, believe me, life has threatened and humbled my steadfast and passionate spirit with too many a persistent reminder, not to get ahead of myself, and to learn the (inconvenience of a … Continue reading One word to describe the cataclysm of a self that is I!?
Once I Was
Once, I was a butterfly, flapping vibrant wings- patterns swirling, circling, web-like threads of light. A storm of color, painted bold, that stunned the dawn's first golden sight. The buddleia marveled โ we look like a supernova when she rests upon our blossoms, wings outstretched in gentle trust, soft against the morning hush. Sunlight spilled … Continue reading Once I Was
When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.
My case against Hull Royal Ward 100, is and has been so mentally exhausting, that I've been unable to find the head space, mental and physical resilience, that would be required of myself alone to come up with the best legal and comprehensive, crucially raised and exposed- not to harm the NHS as a National … Continue reading When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.
Mind In Motion
โMind in Motionโ When shadows rise and silence calls, When hope feels lost behind these walls, Let not your heart give in to fear, For even now, the light is near. The road may twist, the path may break, Yet every step is one we take. No fall too great, no night too long, We … Continue reading Mind In Motion
A shower of words to help those on a healing journeyโฆ which is all of us reallyโฆโค๏ธ
I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or twoโฆ or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! โค๏ธ
Another day in hospital, finding something to doโฆ
It ainโt easy. The sickness, the pain, the constant beeping of machines, the absolute thunder bolt of a shock when you recover enough to realise, your mind is active with hundreds of tabs open at once, you are more capable of movement, you are glad to be feeling like youโre recovering, but oh what to … Continue reading Another day in hospital, finding something to doโฆ
Sketches from my mindโs edges: Explore snippets of my original Artwork- simply click โmenuโ button at the top of page to scroll down and select page ๐จ๐๐๐ฆโโฌ
There is no such thing as a mistake in Art. Creativity to the Mind is like the fallen Acorn which dropped into dark Earth below, only to become light and majesty in the growth of a new Oak Tree. Optimism in the Oak Treeโs revival โSelfโ- The Colourstorm in motion Window to the Soul Cyclical … Continue reading Sketches from my mindโs edges: Explore snippets of my original Artwork- simply click โmenuโ button at the top of page to scroll down and select page ๐จ๐๐๐ฆโโฌ
Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!
Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between usโฆ What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? Iโm talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!
Making sense
I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel traumaโs pretence Iโve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devilโs idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense
Rain and the ripple
New year, new Art
Snippets of snoppits- a whip-de-wewoo A little love from oneโs aspiring. Psychedelic self โค๏ธ A work in progressโฆ Suggestions welcome! Auricular acupuncture steampunk twist ear TBCโฆ
Personal growth and Philosophy quotes for today โค๏ธ
Reclaiming a self- Philosophical Quotes which enable me to keep on paving my own path
Sent from the Wisdom app.
Why the fuck did I think that!?
Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th Decemberโฆ. Iโd just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?
How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life
Smiling is always possible again I know Iโve posted about this before, and rightly so. This time though Iโm going to be more to the point, and the title has already basically said it all. All thatโs left to add to it, is the highlight of the entire reason Iโm still here to be writing … Continue reading How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life
We do return, and we do recover
Narcotics Anonymous- Although I guess Iโm sacrificing my own anonymity here amusinglyโฆ Iโll happily proclaim my own identity, with pride and nothing near shame. Never would I break the anonymity of anyone besides myself, that goes without saying! Iโm sharing an update that I posted to a support group for fellow warriors of recovery from … Continue reading We do return, and we do recover
A Place To Flyโฆ
A poem written by myself 19/10/2024 A place To Fly I have pictures, like paper trials, of a mind, absconded Words can be my muse, but they can deceive and confuse In sketches, the wrought iron gate, whereby the words keep watch, under key, lateโฆ A head filled with secret salubrity, ideas, overgrown trenches, sodden … Continue reading A Place To Flyโฆ
Roots of consent
A poem written by Ellie Neves 15/10/2024 Consent never came into it Firm roots elude the view Of the shrivel of a mind, lost to some bottomless pit Printing into soil, walks the weight Marks the shape, tattooed into pairs Familiar curvature, predictable size Footprints from shoes, carrying human bodily freight Track after track, car … Continue reading Roots of consent
Daily Art- comes from the fucking heart
Discuss, free soulsโฆ I am desperate hear your voice xxx
Hard workโฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!
In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled? *First of all- Credit for the featured image set for this post goes to the wonderfully talented Artist Ella Dorson, who created the portrait of myself and my dog, blended spoken words exchanged between us beautifully, and used her Artwork of me alongside and part … Continue reading Hard workโฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!
Mudras : Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth
Mudras: Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth. Mudras are symbolic hand motions that are frequently employed in Indian traditional โฆMudras : Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth
Best advice in small packages
What's the best piece of advice you've ever received? Iโve received a lot of brilliant advice over time, and to be honest, itโs going to be way too difficult to narrow it down, so Iโm just going to come out with a recent rather hilarious piece of advice I received courtesy of a mental health … Continue reading Best advice in small packages
The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they โfadeโโฆ My song which was not โmy lastโ after all.
One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldnโt say the words โhelpโ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they โfadeโโฆ My song which was not โmy lastโ after all.
Musical prescriptionsโฆ Like- actually capable of causing healing
Music is humanity in harmony- A universal language, capable of ascending the dreadful and touching the hands of the Divine. ๐ชโค๏ธ๐ผ๐โฎ๏ธ๐ So I may not be an official โConsultantโ, but I have come to learn a thing or two about REAL medicine, and how to heal without being hindered by the corrupt Capitalist agenda of … Continue reading Musical prescriptionsโฆ Like- actually capable of causing healing
More than just a silver lining
Hell may burn but the light still stretches above without giving up on you, your children, or faith ๐ Evie begins schoolโฆ You werenโt even 1 year old hereโฆ Now you are a 4 year old schoolgirlโฆ and I could not be more amazed, grateful and proud โค๏ธ Forget the darkness and pain Iโve endured … Continue reading More than just a silver lining
10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger.
Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!
s.o.s- saving our souls
Top tips for people in blips - saving yourself from suicide,
A work in progress Iโm creating as I too, travel along this lifeโs journey ๐โค๏ธ
Enable the (sober life) rave, get thy hose pipe to the garden floor!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGevAG7E3/ Now that I'm doing the whole sober life thing (not that I ever truly needed chemical assistance to get on the floor and rave like the dance floor is the Lord/Lordess... Lordthey -!?- to which I devote divine worship to, religiously)... I sometimes (every day) miss partying and raving my tits off, like my … Continue reading Enable the (sober life) rave, get thy hose pipe to the garden floor!
Oh behold all the fucks I give!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!
A thank you to a previous team, at Mindโs crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
Iโve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mindโs โCrisis Padโ service- which I probably wouldnโt have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving peopleโs lives within crisis mental health servicesโฆ … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mindโs crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
You donโt have to be โstrongโ all the timeโฆ
Written by myself, a fellow warrior of the mental health lived experience debacle, and the journey of learning how to โwinโโฆ You donโt have to stay strong for everyone. You donโt even โhaveโ to stay strong as a command given to your own self aloneโฆ I think you can give yourself permission and validation to … Continue reading You donโt have to be โstrongโ all the timeโฆ
Power, strength and beautifully mapped journey of a survivor- A song which blew gales of admiration into my soul
open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz Sia... 'I Forgive You' I never saw it coming, the electrifying, spine tingling and resonating enrapture, the awe, the gratitude and the falling in love with your music. https://open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz?si=nh3muKwPTES9jc61rj_VDA&pi=e-DQmbD5XdRECZ
Sketch your emotions free
Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressedโฆ We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didnโt inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free
Mother, remember
Remember how you always loved to play those beautiful songs on the piano at home? How, my earliest memories of you, from the infancy of a toddler, are captured in sacred pictures and sounds, rememberโฆ I watched you in wonder, playing Canon in D, as you played, your talent moved deeply, the core of my … Continue reading Mother, remember
For Light and Memory.
A short read reflecting on the gratitude I have for everything my late mother gave me while she was here, and afterโฆ
Love for the little things in life- love your pencil โค๏ธ๐จ
Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life. Throughout life so far, Iโve tended to notice an unexpected trend, which has made itself known to me, despite extenuated hype surrounding the โthingโ in question, it really does seem to be the case that the โbiggerโ the thing it is, in life, … Continue reading Love for the little things in life- love your pencil โค๏ธ๐จ
Check this person out, she is amazing, in pictures and for real! โฌ๏ธ๐
http://www.instagram.com/p/Cz9LWK3Mzmm/ โฌ๏ธโฌ๏ธ๐๐๐ต Check out the Instagram page of the official above link, it is amazing, the creator talks about struggles with mental health, Bipolar Disorder more specifically, what it's like to live with them, in perfect but simple little images, and somehow manages to capture both the exact means of expressing something myself, and I'm … Continue reading Check this person out, she is amazing, in pictures and for real! โฌ๏ธ๐
Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters
Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes donโt we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: โFuck off, I ainโt staying strong, Iโm falling apart, and Iโm too damn tired out to do strong, Iโm too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters
Bipolar โtomorrowsโ
Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHDโฆ Yeah so apparently, thatโs me๐ซจ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ซฃ Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! ๐๐ซฃ๐ต FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar โtomorrowsโ
Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
https://open.spotify.com/track/5GK4ax71sSIokiNEZsND3d?si=eUWfK-i3RCOiPpg7Igzu3w Above/or below at the end of this post , letโs find out... is a song which enabled be to rekindle the light of an identity within myself which Iโd too frequently felt I could no longer discover againโฆ I related to the first half of the song, for its harrowing, and spine tingling resonance … Continue reading Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
Mental health quote
My go: I am the storm, replies the warrior, bellowing the words into the thunder of a roar which made time itself stand still.
The famous fiveโฆ top everyday things that bring me happiness
๐ฅฐ What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness? This question is useful beyond measure to a great degree, especially to fall back upon in times of deep struggles. When youโre in your darkest moments, itโs far from easy to just be able to pull up a list from your head, of any single … Continue reading The famous fiveโฆ top everyday things that bring me happiness
Pending echoes- lyrics to my last song, link to recorded version yet to come!
Life, death, beauty beside decay, as ms portrayed visually, as a reminder of transformation, which sometimes only starts after death. Madness, eh! Hello hello Is anybody out there? Hello hello Can anybody hear? Hello hello All I hear are echoes I shout your name but no one hears The echoes, echoes, All I hear are … Continue reading Pending echoes- lyrics to my last song, link to recorded version yet to come!
Visiting your spirit, alone. My return to the Queens building of Castle Hill Hospital, where the lonely suitcase still haunts me.
No ordinary scene was visited this day. At last, and without any inch of hesitation stopping me from my march towards this destination, I adamantly and resolutely walked through those hospital grounds, nothing and nobody would have been able to stop me. The Queens building, Castle Hill Hospital. Oncology, breast care. It did not take … Continue reading Visiting your spirit, alone. My return to the Queens building of Castle Hill Hospital, where the lonely suitcase still haunts me.
I am the storm, replied the warrior, bellowing the words into a roar which made time stand still.
What makes you laugh?
What makes you laugh? This time, the daily oracle answered thus- My own demise. Itโs gone stage Mother of Dragons, pal! It can be so fucking bad itโs just plain funny. Then what do you do? Why, you laugh your way back to life! ๐โฎ๏ธ๐ They saidโฆ
Hope to heal
Hope is beginning to whisper reassurances back into my earsโฆ Having actually been listened to by a different psychiatrist, it was agreed I would go for a short term inpatient treatment stay at one of the non-assessment wards, Mill View this time, so totally different experience to where I have been before, and gone through … Continue reading Hope to heal
The perfect most meaningful tattoo, that I wish I could fundโฆ
What tattoo do you want and where would you put it? This is an original creation of my late and dearly missed mother. I defy anyone to disagree with me that this wouldnโt make the most spectacular of tattoos. Obviously, the meaning and significance behind it is immense- It is an amazing creation from the … Continue reading The perfect most meaningful tattoo, that I wish I could fundโฆ



















































