Potion for your Mind’s Motion- Art, Comedy, Mental Health, Imperfect poems, Lived Experience Stories, Advice (good and bad)
A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW
SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017- DANCINGWITHENVELOPES Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’
This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails
Am I ‘allowed’ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?💙‘It’s okay not to be okay’💚 I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a question… self doubt’s reliable ‘on’ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’…
http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling ‘old’ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought I’d live to see
Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: ‘Hitting Rock Bottom’, what do you think of? ‘Rock bottom’- in reference to a ‘place’ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping
Once, I was a butterfly, flapping vibrant wings- patterns swirling, circling, web-like threads of light. A storm of color, painted bold, that stunned the dawn's first golden sight. The buddleia marveled — we look like a supernova when she rests upon our blossoms, wings outstretched in gentle trust, soft against the morning hush. Sunlight spilled … Continue reading Once I Was
I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or two… or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! ❤️
Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between us… What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? I’m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!
I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel trauma’s pretence I’ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devil’s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense
Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?
Smiling is always possible again I know I’ve posted about this before, and rightly so. This time though I’m going to be more to the point, and the title has already basically said it all. All that’s left to add to it, is the highlight of the entire reason I’m still here to be writing … Continue reading How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life
More than just a ‘service’ So I admit it… Recently, I’ve had a great deal of negative and emotionally charged declarations of fury to spurt out in angry statements, regarding the NHS, and ‘the state of the present day failings’ which recent experiences may well have influenced in shaping my words. In fact, I’ve been … Continue reading Smiles rise across faces, like silent songs, hushing storms as they pass
Hmmm most exactly… Google- I confess, I adore endlessly searching the seemingly infinite possibilities for new information and knowledge. ChatGBT- Wow, I’m only just discovering this gem for knowledge, too. Wikipedia- What a blessing we have to be able to access an endless loop of knowledge and facts, for free, additionally. I can’t be the … Continue reading Did You Know This Though?
Discuss, free souls… I am desperate hear your voice xxx
In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled? *First of all- Credit for the featured image set for this post goes to the wonderfully talented Artist Ella Dorson, who created the portrait of myself and my dog, blended spoken words exchanged between us beautifully, and used her Artwork of me alongside and part … Continue reading Hard work… Not a headline many people will warm to!
Which topics would you like to be more informed about? You ask, ‘which topics would I like to be more informed about?’… This is considerate of a daily question prompt, to ask, and appreciation for a false sense of a blogging app’s daily generated prompts might actually give a real fuck, about the lonesome writers … Continue reading Disclaimer: My current mood and mindset is far off the sensible’ or ‘behave like an adult’ radar. Answers to Questions may experience adverse side effects.
One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldn’t say the words ‘help’ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all.
If you are a creative, you have a huge leg up when it comes to building healthy coping skills! We use creativity even in the most dry straight-…Creative Therapeutic Techniques for Mental Health | Imagination in Therapy, Stress Reduction, and Social Engagement
Top tips for people in blips - saving yourself from suicide,
A work in progress I’m creating as I too, travel along this life’s journey 🌈❤️
vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!
I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free
http://www.instagram.com/p/Cz9LWK3Mzmm/ ⬆️⬆️🌈💜🎵 Check out the Instagram page of the official above link, it is amazing, the creator talks about struggles with mental health, Bipolar Disorder more specifically, what it's like to live with them, in perfect but simple little images, and somehow manages to capture both the exact means of expressing something myself, and I'm … Continue reading Check this person out, she is amazing, in pictures and for real! ⬇️💜
Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHD… Yeah so apparently, that’s me🫨😵💫🫣 Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! 😂🫣🎵 FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar ‘tomorrows’
*Delightful TW* (Because you have to add those two letters of the alphabet to anything real these days, don't you?) Credit to JoePolitics- Hilarious YouTube Video Link below: ⬇️⬇️⬇️ Fucking hilarious watch- JoePolitics Because I got High YouTube ⬆️⬆️⬆️ My own original comedy Artwork which fits this so perfectly The above comedy art sketch is … Continue reading You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend!
POV: When you ring the crisis team Added original art by self which fits quite well with the above video: See my Gallery Page for more! Absolutely correct!
You won’t know until you know, or I’ve died trying to achieve an end which is for the greater good, particularly in terms of politics, philosophy, and end to globalised corruption, and the primary concern of helping others- most specifically in the dual circumstances of addiction and mental health- but what I’m finding out is … Continue reading A warning…
https://open.spotify.com/track/5GK4ax71sSIokiNEZsND3d?si=eUWfK-i3RCOiPpg7Igzu3w Above/or below at the end of this post , let’s find out... is a song which enabled be to rekindle the light of an identity within myself which I’d too frequently felt I could no longer discover again… I related to the first half of the song, for its harrowing, and spine tingling resonance … Continue reading Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
My go: I am the storm, replies the warrior, bellowing the words into the thunder of a roar which made time itself stand still.
We will see where this goes So yeah, you may have stumbled upon my posts which pertain to serious intent upon giving up. I still feel deeply afflicted by the pain of knowing I could have, and would have, fulfilled a potential, helped others through my lived experiences, go on to be one of the … Continue reading FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts
Literally tell the mental health professionals on a psychiatric ward, I need some help, I’m on the verge of my final goodbye letter… ‘alright then goodnight, out of the lounge, we have to clean now’… ‘I’m scared I might die’ ‘Alright I’ll help you unlock your room.’ Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me? I’m not attention … Continue reading Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- you’re even killing me.
The woman I keep on becoming (we never cease to adapt, aspire, and amaze) Women: (We already know what I’m about to say, oh, we know) But y’know, in light of #internationalwomen’sday 2024, I’ll say a few words. We are not just warriors, who have endured any such a Blitzkrieg- that purposefully, may cause a … Continue reading In celebration of international women’s day
Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.
Find empathy for the planet and non human creatures difficult? https://youtu.be/p7LDk4D3Q3U?si=mhI2D5fpu1PWNiPY -YouTube animation credit: Steve Cutts For some, Empathy comes almost too easily, which can be problematic and world full of Narcissists. Many of us won’t even know where we stand, label wise, between the polar opposites of the ‘Empath’ or the ‘Narcissist’. That’s absolutely … Continue reading An introductory video to Empathy
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain. Say what? ‘So, I must ask you Ellie, how come someone who’s got a University Degree and a brain like yours ended up an addict who’s also been sectioned on a mental health ward?!’ The question itself is easy and funny to answer if I’m … Continue reading Oh I Love this for a daily Question!
‘The portal’ I just walked up to the small building, which houses the interior of a wonderland called ‘Ground’, which runs Art groups, as I’ve just been enlightened about. As it just so happened, I’d forgotten to ask the time and day the groups were actually on at the time I was told about them… … Continue reading Waking up on the Ground
You're writing your autobiography. What's your opening sentence? I’d be pretty straight up about it, I think: ‘I come in peace, but forewarn you, that as a result of reading my autobiography, you may wind up requiring psychiatric intervention, strong medication, therapy, a year of sleep to deal with the intensely eventful, chaotic, philosophical, tangent … Continue reading Daily ‘answers’ (can be mood dependent) to daily questions, let’s go!
Life can be tough, I’m sure we can all agree. Sure it’s got its beautiful moments and even years, too, but we go through life, and despite individual differences in specific circumstances, we are on a battlefield, always. You can’t afford to let your guard down, neither can you afford to simply hide away from … Continue reading The warrior and the shield
In crisis? You are definitely not alone. This post is not a cure all, just based on my own lived experiences with mental illness and suicidal crises, I hope that some of the ideas I’ve learned from myself and others, in order to survive, might be able help you when you need it so baby too. Please share the word of you can ❤️
Mental health matters, so damn much! We need to do something to save ourselves, and our mental health systems in the UK…. If you don’t have time to read the full article, then please just tap this link and take 5 minutes to read the cause, then decide to sign or not. If you can … Continue reading Let’s unite for better mental health services
It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’
I want to take your hand in mine, then together, try and pull us through. A photo taken when i travelled in India… I think it fits well with the topic I realised it’s going to take more than just written words and spoken testimonies, which match like mirrors, the same actions others have tried … Continue reading To all the lost, the survivors, the families the friends. My mental health is a journey, I too must pursue.
God, doesn’t the sight of it just make you mad you can’t just reach into this still image and grab it, so you can heat your home? I stumbled upon an interesting question posted by a group on Facebook called ‘Humble Quote’. The question: ‘Answer This QuestionWithoutSaying, Yeah, Yea, Yo, Yes, Yah, Yup, Yap, Yep,'DO … Continue reading ‘Do you need money’?
The mental health crisis extends beyond treatment accessibility and quality, intersecting with justice and correctional systems with punitive … The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health I had to re-blog this brilliant post, as it addresses the key issues facing the future and the challenges which impact the widely and fatally underrepresented, ignored and … Continue reading The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health
Speaking about experiences of abuse of any kind- this is a post alluding to how it affects both men and women, with a personal male account from my own Dad
If you love an addict or an alcoholic, you probably struggle with sadness. Maybe your sadness has spiraled into depression, or anxiety, or some … Why We Are Sad A re-blog I simply had to share, alongside my own ‘reply’ to the perspective of the author who speaks passionately about ‘Why we are sad’… There … Continue reading Why We Are Sad- an original post I’ve re blogged…I’m addressing this subject from the point of view of ‘the other side’
Brain in bloom… let it be! Grow potatoes in a bathtub you saw discarded on a street corner, and brought home in order to turn it into a marvellous potato and salad patch! What drives me to write, why do I care? Because I have to write in order to maintain a safe distance between … Continue reading What Mind-in-Motion is all about
I may have learnt (and written about!) many techniques and strategies to manage my personality disorder, but that doesn’t mean that I’m magically … My Overwhelming Reality of BPD
Again, I have reposted this from my old WordPress blog The Confession Chamber A hidden listener sits there, behind an opaque screen, for anonymity. It doesn’t really matter, where about in space and time, environmental context, churches or pretext, that this listener is situated. The point is, there is an ear, a receiver, and anyone … Continue reading The confession chamber
Here’s what science shows can help keep us on track. We’ve crossed the threshold into a new decade. There’s a lot of resolution advice swirling, but … 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health A re-blog of an article I found to be most useful and could help many more people out there, struggling with … Continue reading 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health
‘Order, order, in the house!’ The MPs jeer, MPs gloat Eventually, they take their seats Mr Speaker, after all, he calls the shots You may hear the PM clear his throat They might well be thinking, as speeches are prepared Our people are fuming But we can still talk and scheme and scam Do we … Continue reading Political parody – A call to action to address the real issues of mental health
http://www.instagram.com/reel/C1VK7Wio3tV/Click the link above to watch the heartfelt music played by a veteran survivor of suicide. The words speak of strength and determination, championing the dreadful pain and desolation which comes with Suicide- be it ideation, full planning, to the attempts themselves, whereby you literally will endure some of the most horrendous pain and struggling … Continue reading Finding the light- End suicide app awareness
Credit for image to Linda CJ Turner In the intricate world of the pathological covert narcissistic personality, passive-aggressive tactics take center stage as tools for manipulation, … “Disarming the Adversary: Unmasking Covert Narcissistic Tactics” Credit to: Linda CJ Turner Healingfromestrangement.Wordpress.com Link for Linda’s website
vm.tiktok.com/ZGeFVaqMY/ Christmas 2023- The magic of the day id forgotten was even around the corner, shocked me by how wonderful it was!
2. Guns Like Toys by -King Porter Stomp- on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/king-porter-stomp/2-guns-like-toys https://on.soundcloud.com/cbRHev7kUCtSMPhVA -Listen to this on SoundCloud, it's very poignant, and the artists so talented.
Image credit to Linda CJ Turner In the field of neuroscience, the concept of neuronal survival and death is complex and can be influenced by various factors. Neurons are the … Abuse and the brain- credit to Linda CJ Turner Website: Linda CJ Turner website Wow. As a passionately curious individual concerning Neurology, and how … Continue reading Abuse and the brain
**In honor of September being Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month, I will be focusing my blog posts on Suicide Prevention & Education. The topic …Suicide Prevention & Education: Debunking the Myths
Writing Fanfiction in the worlds of Tolkien and Beyond!
Simple words about a complex life.
Growing Through Books, Defying Social Norms
A Journey of Mental Health Recovery
Writing Sparkle Books
Erotic stories for you
Curiosity is a Mental Wanderlust, and Mind Wandering is the process of connecting loose strings of creative thought.
Sometimes You Just Gotta Laugh
Our thoughts define us, so let's focus on a few.
Kinda a poet. Kinda a writer. But not really...
writer. rythmn seeker.
Chaos may Surround you, but Clarity is your Breakthrough.
"Most all of us are mad round here..."
Every step for a brighter path
Mind-in-motion 