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Step it up a notch

Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…

Sunlight windows

Within the shattered bone of a home The walls do wobble My feet do hobble The floors protrude then break away The journey from kitchen to bedroom Shakes and shakes Friends are not permitted here Protective parents don’t want them near Broken bones shatter neighbourhood landscapes The collapse of consistency brings the fear Within their … Continue reading Sunlight windows →

Honestly…

What's the first impression you want to give people? Oftentimes… RUN! 🤣😶‍🌫️🫣 I could be a psychedelic Jaws for all you know!

I am a disgrace, and my field of fucks is barren. This is my Potential farewell.

Absolute TW on this one, don’t read it if you think your biggest threat to life and stability might be dark humour which mentions matters of mental health specifically. Many people may well be outraged. But you can’t say ‘outrage’ without the inclusion of the ‘out’, and so use that paradox to find your way … Continue reading I am a disgrace, and my field of fucks is barren. This is my Potential farewell. →

Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- you’re even killing me.

Literally tell the mental health professionals on a psychiatric ward, I need some help, I’m on the verge of my final goodbye letter… ‘alright then goodnight, out of the lounge, we have to clean now’… ‘I’m scared I might die’ ‘Alright I’ll help you unlock your room.’ Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me? I’m not attention … Continue reading Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- you’re even killing me. →

Empathy gone too far…

So I have recently started writing in a journal with actual pen and paper again, for myself, because I realised the potential benefits to one’s mental health from this. This is what ended up happening, and I don’t even understand how or why! The doodled perspective of Old skool phone with its daily challenges I … Continue reading Empathy gone too far… →

Valium be my Valentine

*probably shouldn’t be using this GIF*TW? Too late I guess! ❤️❤️❤️ Haha oh the laughs to be had! How did you spend your Valentine’s Day Ellie? Why, I got admitted to a psych ward! Awww, I love you too, plastic mattress, let’s spend the night together! 😂😂😂❤️ Credit for song and lyrics to: Ava Max- … Continue reading Valium be my Valentine →

The Mask- a song so beautiful and so sad

The Mask (Original) by Anna Hamill Music on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/anna-hamill-music/the-mask https://on.soundcloud.com/H9K9o16iQpvruj8b7-The Mask by Anna Hamill, listen on SoundCloud A song I first heard at a 'green light Unplugged' gig which was a charity gig in aid of fundraising for MacMillan Cancer care. It. Hiya me me prominently, as I lost both my close friend Emma, … Continue reading The Mask- a song so beautiful and so sad →

Positive thinking

What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year? I finally found the courage to stand up for myself and say: ‘enough is enough’- a lesson in life I’ve been needing to learn for such a long time I began to recover for myself again (only just) I came off Methadone … Continue reading Positive thinking →