Category: recovery

The addiction must go; the person must stay.

I have no interest in commenting on the Reiner family tragedy. Nick Reiner has only been charged and is presumed innocent at this point. I know next …The addiction must go; the person must stay.

PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW

A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW →

REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’

SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017-  DANCINGWITHENVELOPES  Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’ →

Step it up a notch

Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…

WRITER’S BLOCK

A.K.A Survivor’s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasons… This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been ‘unable’ … Continue reading WRITER’S BLOCK →

The Green Mist

Originally written and published on 6th April 2018, on my earlier blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com Hidden, lie the unseen branches Vanished, now- unseen green bloom Deathly claws frosting, winter’s gloom Tender, stems sleep, beneath chill moon Fallow, the heart of a breathless Earth Yet still come the brave, to spear through Ice glazed armour You will see … Continue reading The Green Mist →

Salvaging the sails

This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails →

Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates →

The birthday I never thought I’d live to see

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http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling ‘old’ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought I’d live to see →

The disease of addiction- We came to realise

Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now I’m locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier ‘life‘ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtain’s drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise →

A shower of words to help those on a healing journey… which is all of us really…❤️

I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or two… or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! ❤️

Another day in hospital, finding something to do…

It ain’t easy. The sickness, the pain, the constant beeping of machines, the absolute thunder bolt of a shock when you recover enough to realise, your mind is active with hundreds of tabs open at once, you are more capable of movement, you are glad to be feeling like you’re recovering, but oh what to … Continue reading Another day in hospital, finding something to do… →

Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!

Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between us… What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? I’m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion! →

Put your hands back in the Earth

If you want to re-connect with your roots, re-acquaint yourself with nature, and generally remind yourself about what it means to live, to be human (and therefore crafty, inquisitive, ambitious), then I strongly recommend you take some time to just have a little dig. Uproot some Dandelions, or a bit of your lawn. Expose the soil, … Continue reading Put your hands back in the Earth →

Reclaiming a self- Philosophical Quotes which enable me to keep on paving my own path

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Why the fuck did I think that!?

Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!? →

The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all.

One of the most heartbreaking songs I ever improvised, singing out what I genuinely believed to be my last goodbyes, feeling lost to the dark and dreadful lure of suicide, I found myself singing this song because I couldn’t say the words ‘help’ any louder than I already had been doing for years in my … Continue reading The Echoes- Sounds that in fact always reverberate, even if to human ears they ‘fade’… My song which was not ‘my last’ after all. →

Faltering, unpleasant and off key improv- symbolic and telling of the impact radio silence and isolation with zero voice or support from mental health or other services, hear how dreadful I try to express. Now my mind is decaying.

It’s supposed to be erratic dark imperfect and a touch off key. Silent imperfection of inexpressible unheard sadness grief desolation and exile. It’s not meant to be a pleasant sounding piece. It’s repetitive, grim, off key, imperfect and broken- the wavering harmony of a voice or melody chained off from help being heard or able … Continue reading Faltering, unpleasant and off key improv- symbolic and telling of the impact radio silence and isolation with zero voice or support from mental health or other services, hear how dreadful I try to express. Now my mind is decaying. →

10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger.

Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!

A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.

I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives. →

You don’t have to be ‘strong’ all the time…

Written by myself, a fellow warrior of the mental health lived experience debacle, and the journey of learning how to ‘win’… You don’t have to stay strong for everyone. You don’t even ‘have’ to stay strong as a command given to your own self alone… I think you can give yourself permission and validation to … Continue reading You don’t have to be ‘strong’ all the time… →

Power, strength and beautifully mapped journey of a survivor- A song which blew gales of admiration into my soul

open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz Sia... 'I Forgive You' I never saw it coming, the electrifying, spine tingling and resonating enrapture, the awe, the gratitude and the falling in love with your music. https://open.spotify.com/track/4RurEJ0z5RQbC3bWYKwTbz?si=nh3muKwPTES9jc61rj_VDA&pi=e-DQmbD5XdRECZ

Sketch your emotions free

Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free →

For Light and Memory.

A short read reflecting on the gratitude I have for everything my late mother gave me while she was here, and after…

Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters

Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes don’t we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: ‘Fuck off, I ain’t staying strong, I’m falling apart, and I’m too damn tired out to do strong, I’m too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters →

Bipolar ‘tomorrows’

Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHD… Yeah so apparently, that’s me🫨😵‍💫🫣 Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! 😂🫣🎵 FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar ‘tomorrows’ →

You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend!

*Delightful TW* (Because you have to add those two letters of the alphabet to anything real these days, don't you?) Credit to JoePolitics- Hilarious YouTube Video Link below: ⬇️⬇️⬇️ Fucking hilarious watch- JoePolitics Because I got High YouTube ⬆️⬆️⬆️ My own original comedy Artwork which fits this so perfectly The above comedy art sketch is … Continue reading You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend! →

Mental health quote

My go: I am the storm, replies the warrior, bellowing the words into the thunder of a roar which made time itself stand still.

7 of 9- The brilliant breaker of the Borg’s grasp, rescued by the crew of Star Trek Voyager

If you could be a character from a book or film, who would you be? Why? An icon of pure strength, sexy, stubborn, fiercely intelligent. Like a phoenix, Seven embarks upon a journey of rediscovering the ‘self’ after a hive mind ordeal, entrapment by Borg captivity, she had her individuality purged. Yet despite the darkness … Continue reading 7 of 9- The brilliant breaker of the Borg’s grasp, rescued by the crew of Star Trek Voyager →

The job I would and will always do for free- but hear me now, the world has never been so close to losing me

What job would you do for free? In the midst of the madness in which I am currently (and really, always have been, but never so aware of the extent to which I am trapped inside it) I will agree with the part of myself that is commanding me to finish off some final writing … Continue reading The job I would and will always do for free- but hear me now, the world has never been so close to losing me →

I am the storm, replied the warrior, bellowing the words into a roar which made time stand still.

Hope to heal

Hope is beginning to whisper reassurances back into my ears… Having actually been listened to by a different psychiatrist, it was agreed I would go for a short term inpatient treatment stay at one of the non-assessment wards, Mill View this time, so totally different experience to where I have been before, and gone through … Continue reading Hope to heal →

FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts

We will see where this goes So yeah, you may have stumbled upon my posts which pertain to serious intent upon giving up. I still feel deeply afflicted by the pain of knowing I could have, and would have, fulfilled a potential, helped others through my lived experiences, go on to be one of the … Continue reading FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts →

Valium be my Valentine

*probably shouldn’t be using this GIF*TW? Too late I guess! ❤️❤️❤️ Haha oh the laughs to be had! How did you spend your Valentine’s Day Ellie? Why, I got admitted to a psych ward! Awww, I love you too, plastic mattress, let’s spend the night together! 😂😂😂❤️ Credit for song and lyrics to: Ava Max- … Continue reading Valium be my Valentine →

The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’

It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’ →

The leisurely pursuit of answering daily questions

What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time? I once did a charity skydive for Breast Cancer in 2010… that pursuit of leisure in the name of a good cause, was amazing 🤩 I’ll be honest, it’s hard for me to even remember what my own personal concept of ‘leisure’ could be. I’ve … Continue reading The leisurely pursuit of answering daily questions →

Questions needing an answer

If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be? ‘My head!!’ That drinking an entire bottle of Kraken Rum is NOT for cats! If only she could have understood my English language, when I warned her: ‘I wouldn’t be necking all that Rum, Molly, even I can’t handle the ruin caused … Continue reading Questions needing an answer →

Losing and then finding yourself

You’re still there- no matter how lost you are ‘I’ve lost myself trying to please everyone else… Now I’m losing everyone and finding myself’ -Words written by a friend on a journey towards recovery The words of this friend got to me and moved me in quite a way. I’m sure I’m not alone in … Continue reading Losing and then finding yourself →

The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health

The mental health crisis extends beyond treatment accessibility and quality, intersecting with justice and correctional systems with punitive … The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health I had to re-blog this brilliant post, as it addresses the key issues facing the future and the challenges which impact the widely and fatally underrepresented, ignored and … Continue reading The Need for Systemic Reform in Mental Health →

Musical first aid time

Please accept these links to some of my favourite ‘musical first aid’ songs! 1. ‘Song for the crickets’ - Parov Stelar: Open song in Spotify app 2. ‘Why do you only call me when you’re high?’ - Artic Monkeys: Open song in Spotify app 3. ‘Creep’- Radiohead: Open song in Spotify app 4. ‘Angel Eyes’- … Continue reading Musical first aid time →

Contradictions

I know I need to write, to let off steam. If I don’t write, then i’ll just be left alone with the thoughts, and the thoughts are crap company. But …Contradictions

Evidence emerges to prove I have been ‘off my head’ without any need for drugs/alcohol, from the beginning. I was born this way!

‘Do I look high to you!? Never mind my new hat, you just focus on my question!’ And my Dad swears to me that he had fed me no alcohol before taking this picture…! ‘K hole? What K hole!?’ I’m listening to the heartbeat of this soft and soothing pile of pebbles!’ So I have … Continue reading Evidence emerges to prove I have been ‘off my head’ without any need for drugs/alcohol, from the beginning. I was born this way! →

Re-blogging an upload in rebellion- Tales from the Psych Ward, how to find the comedy within

mindinmotion.home.blog/2023/12/20/tales-from-the-psych-ward-hilarious-ways-to-disturb-your-11-constant/ I don't know why the original publication of this post hasn't uploaded properly, but here is a link to access it! I assure you, it is worth the effort!

Narcissistic abuse, as experienced from a male perspective

Speaking about experiences of abuse of any kind- this is a post alluding to how it affects both men and women, with a personal male account from my own Dad

Why We Are Sad- an original post I’ve re blogged…I’m addressing this subject from the point of view of ‘the other side’

If you love an addict or an alcoholic, you probably struggle with sadness. Maybe your sadness has spiraled into depression, or anxiety, or some … Why We Are Sad A re-blog I simply had to share, alongside my own ‘reply’ to the perspective of the author who speaks passionately about ‘Why we are sad’… There … Continue reading Why We Are Sad- an original post I’ve re blogged…I’m addressing this subject from the point of view of ‘the other side’ →

Re-blog of a post I resonate with deeply, as I’m sure others will too: My Overwhelming Reality of BPD

I may have learnt (and written about!) many techniques and strategies to manage my personality disorder, but that doesn’t mean that I’m magically … My Overwhelming Reality of BPD

The confession chamber

Again, I have reposted this from my old WordPress blog The Confession Chamber A hidden listener sits there, behind an opaque screen, for anonymity. It doesn’t really matter, where about in space and time, environmental context, churches or pretext, that this listener is situated. The point is, there is an ear, a receiver, and anyone … Continue reading The confession chamber →

20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health

Here’s what science shows can help keep us on track. We’ve crossed the threshold into a new decade. There’s a lot of resolution advice swirling, but … 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health A re-blog of an article I found to be most useful and could help many more people out there, struggling with … Continue reading 20 Ways to Protect Your Mental Health →

Political parody – A call to action to address the real issues of mental health

‘Order, order, in the house!’ The MPs jeer, MPs gloat Eventually, they take their seats Mr Speaker, after all, he calls the shots You may hear the PM clear his throat They might well be thinking, as speeches are prepared Our people are fuming But we can still talk and scheme and scam Do we … Continue reading Political parody – A call to action to address the real issues of mental health →

You don’t have to be a perfect singer in order to revel and recover from the joy of singing ❤️

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Finding the light- End suicide app awareness

http://www.instagram.com/reel/C1VK7Wio3tV/Click the link above to watch the heartfelt music played by a veteran survivor of suicide. The words speak of strength and determination, championing the dreadful pain and desolation which comes with Suicide- be it ideation, full planning, to the attempts themselves, whereby you literally will endure some of the most horrendous pain and struggling … Continue reading Finding the light- End suicide app awareness →

Never give up

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Gratitude and lessons which took a while in the learning!

My best friend, mother, teacher and guardian angel ❤️ I actually wrote this post back on 10th December, I wrote it from my hospital bed, and I wrote it with passion and sheer gratitude that I’d had a mother like you to help teach me incredibly important lessons in life (as well as Art!) It … Continue reading Gratitude and lessons which took a while in the learning! →

Surprises!

vm.tiktok.com/ZGeFVaqMY/ Christmas 2023- The magic of the day id forgotten was even around the corner, shocked me by how wonderful it was!

Tales from the ‘Psych Ward’- Hilarious ways to disturb your 1:1 constant

‘Always watching, won’t miss a trick!’ Well I have to confess, I have spent a fairly ample number of days (this is as vague as I’m admitting, could be under twenty- eight, could also be nearing the thousands- I won’t spoil your fun, it’s yours to guess!) sectioned under the Mental Heath Act, within a … Continue reading Tales from the ‘Psych Ward’- Hilarious ways to disturb your 1:1 constant →

When memories whisper consolation to you…

Where do I turn? When memories come back to you, like a guiding flashlight, rejoice in the guidance they can offer you, through remembering a distant time ago, before your sense of direction became scrambled by adversity. Back in 2018 I sat out at dusk, upon my mother’s patio, hidden within the trees, and those … Continue reading When memories whisper consolation to you… →

Salvaging the sails

This is another re-blog of a post I wrote on my old blog, and for fear of repeating myself about certain topics I’ve had experiences with in life, I decided that actually, it serves as a reminder that recovery truly is a journey that takes time over many years, usually. This is not a bad … Continue reading Salvaging the sails →

Liberate thyself

My story of survival to revival. How I liberated myself from hell, broke free from the chains of an abusive relationship, found courage within which I never knew I had. My message to you is that you can liberate yourself too. You’re never alone.

Time to live

Why I’m writing again, how I remembered that the ‘time to live’ (not merely exist or survive), was now. Finding freedom from adversity in life also helped me find my pen. Let’s get writing!

This year

This year has brought chaos This year has brought fractures The days have slipped through me While the minutes drag like decades This year, it writes chapters The stories are told, Speak of love Speak of loss Speak of a free will depleting Control and coercion Narcotic and intoxicating Nonsense and anger Desperate diversion An … Continue reading This year →