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A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is today… I’m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldn’t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW
SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT ‘This too shall pass’ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017- DANCINGWITHENVELOPES Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasn’t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE ‘UP’
Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and it’s meaning, and significance, worth and hope…
This post was written by myself, and published first on my first ever blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- on 10th August 2017. Introduction: Reflective insights into various journaled moments throughout different periods of lived experience, across the years, may be utilised via a type of spoken word time travel, to reveal truth and experience still very much valid … Continue reading Garden for your thoughts…
This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if ‘practice makes perfect’, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails
Am I ‘allowed’ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?💙‘It’s okay not to be okay’💚 I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a question… self doubt’s reliable ‘on’ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my ‘self’…
New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates
Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now I’m locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier ‘life‘ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtain’s drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise
How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals? Sorry for the lack of divinity or sophistication which I fail today to apply to this daily question- Oh shock horror- we noticed life was pretty brutal and reacted accordingly, send down your miracles then. The ‘plethora of the vocab’ is … Continue reading Daily prompt- easy to answer !
Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: ‘Hitting Rock Bottom’, what do you think of? ‘Rock bottom’- in reference to a ‘place’ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping
My case against Hull Royal Ward 100, is and has been so mentally exhausting, that I've been unable to find the head space, mental and physical resilience, that would be required of myself alone to come up with the best legal and comprehensive, crucially raised and exposed- not to harm the NHS as a National … Continue reading When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.
I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or two… or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! ❤️
I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel trauma’s pretence I’ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devil’s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense
I creep into a tangle Mildly plucked, I’ve spun forsooth, a silvered web Draped in need, Dressed in lust, and endeavour Sparkling eyes. Look how she tries, endlessly tries Let’s douse oneself, Submerge ourselves In dancing, we’re disguised from Expectation’s hollow cries I once hopped here, swirled in spiral Trickled like a breeze Upon an … Continue reading Spinning in spiral
Prove this wrong! Why care? Sometimes to even manage to care is in itself a tremendous challenge, and from a very basic level, there is your first reason to pursue caring- because to be unable to do so is so very torturous, and certainly a place you don’t want to remain shackled within. So care … Continue reading Why Care?
Yay! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/?page_id=3533 🌈 Blog Welcome to a world of limitless possibilities, where the journey is as exhilarating as the destination, and where every moment is an opportunity to make your mark on the canvas of existence. The only limit is the extent of your imagination. Mind In Motion- You'll love who we are Navigating life's … Continue reading Have a free poem day! Happy free poem day to you all!
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Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th December…. I’d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?
More than just a ‘service’ So I admit it… Recently, I’ve had a great deal of negative and emotionally charged declarations of fury to spurt out in angry statements, regarding the NHS, and ‘the state of the present day failings’ which recent experiences may well have influenced in shaping my words. In fact, I’ve been … Continue reading Smiles rise across faces, like silent songs, hushing storms as they pass
Do you trust your instincts? Would YOU trust this person’s instincts!? Exactly as I thought- NOT A CHANCE 🤣 Seriously though, no I do not trust my instincts! I maybe once thought I could, and subsequently made the error of trusting them in years gone by… But if only you could see the train wreck … Continue reading Absolutely no chance do I ‘trust my instincts’!
Web. 10 Dark Truths that will Make You Stronger. Well worthy re-blog!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGevAG7E3/ Now that I'm doing the whole sober life thing (not that I ever truly needed chemical assistance to get on the floor and rave like the dance floor is the Lord/Lordess... Lordthey -!?- to which I devote divine worship to, religiously)... I sometimes (every day) miss partying and raving my tits off, like my … Continue reading Enable the (sober life) rave, get thy hose pipe to the garden floor!
vm.tiktok.com/ZGe7TMTpV/ I'm skint, I've ran out of me meds, the mental health services in this city (barring the charity Mind), have added even more ingredients to that C-PTSD diagnosis I've been gifted by life and Psychiatrists, the Bipolar shits and giggles that in all seriousness- CLEARLY cause problems and shenanigans... The perpetrators and the global … Continue reading Oh behold all the fucks I give!
I’ve just had a really beneficial, possibly life altering conversation, with a volunteer who works for Hull Mind’s ‘Crisis Pad’ service- which I probably wouldn’t have had a need or chance to do if certain preliminary and pre-existing NHS services, tasked with the rather voluminous task of saving people’s lives within crisis mental health services… … Continue reading A thank you to a previous team, at Mind’s crisis pad- praises well worth singing for those who genuinely save lives.
How would you describe yourself to someone who can't see you? The chance to reinvent a ‘description’ so suit some eyes that cannot see me… harder than it sounds, and you perhaps I’m not actually the one best qualified anyway… Wow, I’m trying to not overthink this or overanalyse the variables which I always feel … Continue reading Ooooohhh what a question!
Written by myself, a fellow warrior of the mental health lived experience debacle, and the journey of learning how to ‘win’… You don’t have to stay strong for everyone. You don’t even ‘have’ to stay strong as a command given to your own self alone… I think you can give yourself permission and validation to … Continue reading You don’t have to be ‘strong’ all the time…
Psychedelics- I need your help (I think) A disclaimer:I don’t mean to be insensitive, I’m just really not capable of thinking without speaking first. So a good question was asked: Do blind people get the same trippy visuals when taking mushrooms? Furthermore: The real question is that when deaf people get voices in their head … Continue reading Disclaimer- This post might cause problems
Which activities make you lose track of time? What a question! 😂 I can’t tell whether it’s the track of time making me lose the activities or the activities making me lose track of time!? Because believe me, they all seem to! It’s been suggested many times I get assessed for ADHD… I have tried, … Continue reading Does ADHD class as an ‘activity’!?
Words can sometimes deceive us, despite their brilliant potential, they also have a power to constrain us, and lack the power to enable certain things to be expressed… We could write and speak, mask and pretend all we like, if only we could, and also, if only we didn’t inadvertently do our mental wellbeing harm, … Continue reading Sketch your emotions free
Daily prompt- What gets better with age? My blunt answer…
A short read reflecting on the gratitude I have for everything my late mother gave me while she was here, and after…
Good intentions says this little guy, good intentions from the making of this meme- but sometimes don’t we just get sick of hearing this statement, as in to the point of screaming: ‘Fuck off, I ain’t staying strong, I’m falling apart, and I’m too damn tired out to do strong, I’m too damn low to … Continue reading Advice on the journey of healing- your mental health matters
Hypermanic polar opposites, Bipolar Disorder stirring and bubbling in a broth combined with C-PTSD and a sprinkle of ADHD… Yeah so apparently, that’s me🫨😵💫🫣 Not that my coffee table resembles any such a diagnosis at all! 😂🫣🎵 FYI- It took me fucking HOURS to concentrate enough to write this, so do me a favour and … Continue reading Bipolar ‘tomorrows’
What does "having it all" mean to you? Is it attainable? On ‘attaining it all’ Can it be done? My view: To ‘have it all’, is a misconception of any aspiration, throughout human history and everything we can ever learn and experience, whilst riding out the vast storm, a turbulence of life, tumultuous plus unpredictably … Continue reading ‘Having it all’ means having closeness to ‘no more’
*Delightful TW* (Because you have to add those two letters of the alphabet to anything real these days, don't you?) Credit to JoePolitics- Hilarious YouTube Video Link below: ⬇️⬇️⬇️ Fucking hilarious watch- JoePolitics Because I got High YouTube ⬆️⬆️⬆️ My own original comedy Artwork which fits this so perfectly The above comedy art sketch is … Continue reading You don’t know how much I love how hilarious this is- Credit to JoePolitics- You utter legend!
POV: When you ring the crisis team Added original art by self which fits quite well with the above video: See my Gallery Page for more! Absolutely correct!
https://open.spotify.com/track/5GK4ax71sSIokiNEZsND3d?si=eUWfK-i3RCOiPpg7Igzu3w Above/or below at the end of this post , let’s find out... is a song which enabled be to rekindle the light of an identity within myself which I’d too frequently felt I could no longer discover again… I related to the first half of the song, for its harrowing, and spine tingling resonance … Continue reading Identify- Be strong tonight, and remember who you are
I don’t care anymore about holding back, this is what ‘Great Britain’ looks like today, I am not scared to share situations which others will resonate with, silently. Confession time: Yeah, cheers government emergency crisis loan, I actually ended up using the £348 you to pay for my suicide. Rather than use it for the … Continue reading How about this for a bit of raw reality, shed a little light on ‘Great Britain’s’ plight
Just to clarify, this was never how I intended my life to turn out, but here I am, post crisis-pad intervention, distracting the emotional meltdowns which threaten my own safety keeping faculties, because of lacking options to exist otherwise. Sometimes, I can actually do other things to avoid the consequences of even trying to close … Continue reading Mania and insomnia take on Facebook adverts, for a ‘night’…
If you could be a character from a book or film, who would you be? Why? An icon of pure strength, sexy, stubborn, fiercely intelligent. Like a phoenix, Seven embarks upon a journey of rediscovering the ‘self’ after a hive mind ordeal, entrapment by Borg captivity, she had her individuality purged. Yet despite the darkness … Continue reading 7 of 9- The brilliant breaker of the Borg’s grasp, rescued by the crew of Star Trek Voyager
Life, death, beauty beside decay, as ms portrayed visually, as a reminder of transformation, which sometimes only starts after death. Madness, eh! Hello hello Is anybody out there? Hello hello Can anybody hear? Hello hello All I hear are echoes I shout your name but no one hears The echoes, echoes, All I hear are … Continue reading Pending echoes- lyrics to my last song, link to recorded version yet to come!
The end of the road, a draft I have published too soon, about my mental health journey, and the consequences of abominable mental health failure in Hull, UK. Suicide- I’m not the only one.
What makes you laugh? This time, the daily oracle answered thus- My own demise. It’s gone stage Mother of Dragons, pal! It can be so fucking bad it’s just plain funny. Then what do you do? Why, you laugh your way back to life! 🌈☮️😂 They said…
What do you wish you could do more every day? Honestly? I’d have to go with the answer indulging in the daily indulgence of pure Ecstasy every day. I do have other less controversial answers, but I’m going with this honest one, because, you know, Ecstasy! Yay I’m talking pure 90s rave era level, of … Continue reading Things I shouldn’t say
We will see where this goes So yeah, you may have stumbled upon my posts which pertain to serious intent upon giving up. I still feel deeply afflicted by the pain of knowing I could have, and would have, fulfilled a potential, helped others through my lived experiences, go on to be one of the … Continue reading FYI- I ranted myself to life, reflecting on recent posts
Absolute TW on this one, don’t read it if you think your biggest threat to life and stability might be dark humour which mentions matters of mental health specifically. Many people may well be outraged. But you can’t say ‘outrage’ without the inclusion of the ‘out’, and so use that paradox to find your way … Continue reading I am a disgrace, and my field of fucks is barren. This is my Potential farewell.
Literally tell the mental health professionals on a psychiatric ward, I need some help, I’m on the verge of my final goodbye letter… ‘alright then goodnight, out of the lounge, we have to clean now’… ‘I’m scared I might die’ ‘Alright I’ll help you unlock your room.’ Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me? I’m not attention … Continue reading Suddenly, crushed again. Mental health crisis UK- you’re even killing me.
Who is the most confident person you know? Guess my answer… The answer to this daily prompt question, asking, ‘who is the most confident person I know?’ Well, I reckon, that despite having had the privilege of meeting some incredibly confident people in my lifetime, and taking inspiration from the their unwavering shine, I find … Continue reading Tooting my own horn without shame 🎺🌈
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings? What an apt daily question to ask, of someone who is officially ‘diagnosed’ as having C-PTSD, BPD, Major Depressive Illness, recurring eating disorders and a history of drug and alcohol addiction! You asked for this! Prepare yourselves for some disturbing answers, and hopefully, a few … Continue reading What a question! Why, Ive got 33 years worth of ‘strategies’, for those officially ‘diagnosed’!
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Poem ‘Imprints in the snow’ A reflective piece inspired and triggered by experiences of C-PTSD, recovery, flashbacks, memories, and resilience.
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain. Say what? ‘So, I must ask you Ellie, how come someone who’s got a University Degree and a brain like yours ended up an addict who’s also been sectioned on a mental health ward?!’ The question itself is easy and funny to answer if I’m … Continue reading Oh I Love this for a daily Question!
You're writing your autobiography. What's your opening sentence? I’d be pretty straight up about it, I think: ‘I come in peace, but forewarn you, that as a result of reading my autobiography, you may wind up requiring psychiatric intervention, strong medication, therapy, a year of sleep to deal with the intensely eventful, chaotic, philosophical, tangent … Continue reading Daily ‘answers’ (can be mood dependent) to daily questions, let’s go!
No, ‘life’, you still haven’t stopped me. I might have been crushed, but I am a soul with the ‘chaos within to give rise to a dancing star‘ to quote Nietzsche, and my energy, compressed… apparently (I’ve noticed, after observing the survival of my intact soul, after countless afflictions, and attacks, have tried to dim … Continue reading Declaration against my defeat
Mental health matters, so damn much! We need to do something to save ourselves, and our mental health systems in the UK…. If you don’t have time to read the full article, then please just tap this link and take 5 minutes to read the cause, then decide to sign or not. If you can … Continue reading Let’s unite for better mental health services
*probably shouldn’t be using this GIF*TW? Too late I guess! ❤️❤️❤️ Haha oh the laughs to be had! How did you spend your Valentine’s Day Ellie? Why, I got admitted to a psych ward! Awww, I love you too, plastic mattress, let’s spend the night together! 😂😂😂❤️ Credit for song and lyrics to: Ava Max- … Continue reading Valium be my Valentine
Wow… so many potential titles spring to mind, not all of them favourable! This requires a lightbulb with its own brain I could brainstorm some instinctive ideas: The tangle with a twist All the paths which didn’t exist, which I turned into my own direction The last one standing at the rave, who wouldn’t stop, … Continue reading My biography might be titled…
It may have only been ‘just one night’ where I found myself , having lost a colossal extent of self belief, motivation and hope, which ‘led me to using for the night’, but a ‘lapse’ is still technically a ‘relapse’, and it needs to be faced, head on, not hidden away from. To own your … Continue reading The sadness seen in the face of a recovering addict, post- ‘lapse’/‘relapse’
Writing Fanfiction in the worlds of Tolkien and Beyond!
Simple words about a complex life.
Growing Through Books, Defying Social Norms
A Journey of Mental Health Recovery
Writing Sparkle Books
Erotic stories for you
Curiosity is a Mental Wanderlust, and Mind Wandering is the process of connecting loose strings of creative thought.
Sometimes You Just Gotta Laugh
Our thoughts define us, so let's focus on a few.
Kinda a poet. Kinda a writer. But not really...
writer. rythmn seeker.
Chaos may Surround you, but Clarity is your Breakthrough.
"Most all of us are mad round here..."
Every step for a brighter path
Mind-in-motion 