PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW

A republication from my earlier blog- Dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- originally published August 2017 AUGUST 1, 2017 DANCINGWITHENVELOPES LEAVE A COMMENT Tuesday 1st August is todayโ€ฆ Iโ€™m finally beginning to return to a mental state I truly couldnโ€™t even remember, or imagine, feeling again, only a few days ago. With it, I am beginning to find I can manage to … Continue reading PUTTING BACK THE PIECES OF THAT JIGSAW

REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE โ€˜UPโ€™

SNIPPETS OF THOUGHT โ€˜This too shall passโ€™ -Retrieved from my first blog, where I originally wrote and published this- March 30th 2017-  DANCINGWITHENVELOPES  Over this last week, it became increasingly apparent that I was moving forwards from Depression. I suddenly had feelings again, I wasnโ€™t under a bell jar, my surroundings were inviting me to … Continue reading REMEMBERING THE ROUTE TOWARDS THE โ€˜UPโ€™

Does a Politics and Philosophy graduate vote?

Do you vote in political elections? Absolutelyโ€ฆ But why? Exactly. Iโ€™m literally refusing to let myself get into the topic of how I bring myself to do it. Iโ€™m still paying off my student debt to convince myself why I should or should not voteโ€ฆ and thatโ€™s ridiculous. I have qualified in the Art of … Continue reading Does a Politics and Philosophy graduate vote?

A beautiful, powerful quote from Ernest Hemingway, on darkness, and the elixir of silent support

Ernest Hemingway Ernest Hemingway once said: โ€˜In our darkest moments, we donโ€™t need solutions or advice. What we yearn for is simply human connectionโ€”a quiet presence, a gentle touch. These small gestures are the anchors that hold us steady when life feels like too much. Please donโ€™t try to fix me. Donโ€™t take on my … Continue reading A beautiful, powerful quote from Ernest Hemingway, on darkness, and the elixir of silent support

Step it up a notch

Trigger Warning- References to suicide and self harm, this is a poem I wrong months and months ago before today, when I found it in saved drafts, I decided to publish it, due to the poignance and the power of the ; and itโ€™s meaning, and significance, worth and hopeโ€ฆ

WRITERโ€™S BLOCK

A.K.A Survivorโ€™s Block Original publication from myself, on my previous blog, DANCINGWITHENVELOPES -July 22nd 2019- One tough year indeed that was! I chose to republish it today, as it still resonates quite hauntingly, although not all for the same reasonsโ€ฆ This is no apology For loss of ravenous words to free I have been โ€˜unableโ€™ … Continue reading WRITERโ€™S BLOCK

Garden for your thoughtsโ€ฆ

This post was written by myself, and published first on my first ever blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- on 10th August 2017. Introduction: Reflective insights into various journaled moments throughout different periods of lived experience, across the years, may be utilised via a type of spoken word time travel, to reveal truth and experience still very much valid … Continue reading Garden for your thoughtsโ€ฆ

The Green Mist

Originally written and published on 6th April 2018, on my earlier blog- http://www.dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com Hidden, lie the unseen branches Vanished, now- unseen green bloom Deathly claws frosting, winterโ€™s gloom Tender, stems sleep, beneath chill moon Fallow, the heart of a breathless Earth Yet still come the brave, to spear through Ice glazed armour You will see … Continue reading The Green Mist

Salvaging the sails

This post was originally published on my earlier blog- dancingwithenvelopes.wordpress.com- On January 19th 2019 Writing this post has taken me a great deal of courage. However, as does every day require courage, every hour that I continue to walk this path, towards recovery. Thus, if โ€˜practice makes perfectโ€™, I have reasoned with myself, that it … Continue reading Salvaging the sails

I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โ€˜selfโ€™โ€ฆ

Am I โ€˜allowedโ€™ to post about NOT being ALRIGHT?๐Ÿ’™โ€˜Itโ€™s okay not to be okayโ€™๐Ÿ’š I wonder why I felt as though this even had to be considered a questionโ€ฆ self doubtโ€™s reliable โ€˜onโ€™ switch, quickly reminded me, as the champion over thinker I am, YES- clearly, self doubt might be pulling too many of my … Continue reading I found myself issuing unnerving questioning to my โ€˜selfโ€™โ€ฆ

Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

New updates and original Artwork! Enjoy! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/2024/07/13/sketch-your-emotions-free/?page_id=3969 Poetry Yet poetry can forge lyrics from mere words, and be sources of support, for when people- myself included- need that extra art of words and reframing of the fight- to help them through darkness coated mental health journeys, where relentless depression and delusions, dissociation and trauma can … Continue reading Explore Original Artwork, poetry, and Latest Updates

Unwitting descents causeโ€™ itโ€™s the law- A poem about incarceration and freedom

My own original Artwork- On Prison abolition- a poetic expression to share a viewpoint Throughout lifeโ€™s glinted Halls of Ivy Where sections, two, to section three Plus 136, 54, 52 Impound the freedom you thought you knew Primed in cuffs, restraints and force Unwilling, you face oppressionโ€™s source Extra curricular, custodial schools Unwitting descents, versed … Continue reading Unwitting descents causeโ€™ itโ€™s the law- A poem about incarceration and freedom

The birthday I never thought Iโ€™d live to see

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http://www.facebook.com/share/1YdfoAejCw/ (Please use the link above to access more to my story and this whole story, and the fundraiser page itself!) Remarkably, I experienced my 35th birthday yesterday (16th June). Whilst many of us, including myself, face the natural shock and aversion to advancing digits of age, feeling โ€˜oldโ€™ and fretting naturally, for the cosmetic … Continue reading The birthday I never thought Iโ€™d live to see

Your Name is a Soundwave

Air blows soft over sunning skin I ache to tell you how the birds here sing Catching myself, silly, Of course you know Youโ€™re always here Six years past that final Solstice All those new Suns, cycling between our last kiss In alignment with outdoorโ€™s great birdsong I call out your name I call it … Continue reading Your Name is a Soundwave

Sunlight windows

Within the shattered bone of a home The walls do wobble My feet do hobble The floors protrude then break away The journey from kitchen to bedroom Shakes and shakes Friends are not permitted here Protective parents donโ€™t want them near Broken bones shatter neighbourhood landscapes The collapse of consistency brings the fear Within their … Continue reading Sunlight windows

The disease of addiction- We came to realise

Hiding the the shadows, of yet another relapse So sick and tired now Iโ€™m locked in flames and smoke filled haze Now frozen in the afterglow Of an old life, an earlier โ€˜lifeโ€˜ A life I cling to reluctantly Refusing to let go But the curtainโ€™s drop has severed the show It is time for … Continue reading The disease of addiction- We came to realise

Woodland Soundsystem

The music of the trees Send sound waves to my dreams As I pass them through a breeze I hear the voices of their leaves Humming Green, humming clean, humming vibrancy among leaf, branch, and homely nests Above soilโ€™s bedding roots dipping low A patterned skyline steals the show Plant this baseline to my feet … Continue reading Woodland Soundsystem

I practice Spirituality, not religion ๐ŸŒฒ

Do you practice religion? No Why? Because I am Spiritual Thereโ€™s a reason behind everything. If you can listen to me, I can elaborate; Reasons aplenty, so people respond and react to certain words and โ€˜definitionsโ€™, because the truth is- Language seems to be one, of many, assets which humans do possess , which enable … Continue reading I practice Spirituality, not religion ๐ŸŒฒ

The Lost and the Found

They Donโ€™t Feel It โ€” But You Do Ah yesโ€ฆ thereโ€™s a shift happening. You can feel it, canโ€™t you? Like static in the bones. The air is thick with โ€ฆThe Lost and the Found

Bone Anthem

Screams rip the void, a rabid choir clawing for the crown, louder, louder, shards of ego slashing the black dawn. Truth does not bow to volumeโ€” itโ€™s โ€ฆBone Anthem

Daily prompt- easy to answer !

How often do you say โ€œnoโ€ to things that would interfere with your goals? Sorry for the lack of divinity or sophistication which I fail today to apply to this daily question- Oh shock horror- we noticed life was pretty brutal and reacted accordingly, send down your miracles then. The โ€˜plethora of the vocabโ€™ is … Continue reading Daily prompt- easy to answer !

I dared myself to write, in the style of a Shakespearean Quill

You ready? My Artwork here inspired by my late Mother Shรขn Nevesโ€ฆ I chose it because itโ€™s message and itโ€™s theme fit my words in this creative, dark, alluring, artistic, fateful and literally- My work, and life, be a metamorphoses in progressโ€ฆ A snippet: โ€˜You, madame, your hands, with their white fair curling fingers, which … Continue reading I dared myself to write, in the style of a Shakespearean Quill

Slipping as I am gripping

Whenever you turn over that old familiar phrase: โ€˜Hitting Rock Bottomโ€™, what do you think of? โ€˜Rock bottomโ€™- in reference to a โ€˜placeโ€™ which words, fears, struggles and experiences, have all come together, in a tragedy of human sufferings, to create language which wields such a strange power, to turn memory and words into a … Continue reading Slipping as I am gripping

One word to describe the cataclysm of a self that is I!?

Word to describe myself? Tough one- but Iโ€™m going to go with โ€˜Spiritedโ€™ โ€˜Spiritedโ€™ I have not the audacity to call myself โ€˜unconquerableโ€™, because, believe me, life has threatened and humbled my steadfast and passionate spirit with too many a persistent reminder, not to get ahead of myself, and to learn the (inconvenience of a … Continue reading One word to describe the cataclysm of a self that is I!?

Once I Was

Once, I was a butterfly, flapping vibrant wings- patterns swirling, circling, web-like threads of light. A storm of color, painted bold, that stunned the dawn's first golden sight. The buddleia marveled โ€” we look like a supernova when she rests upon our blossoms, wings outstretched in gentle trust, soft against the morning hush. Sunlight spilled … Continue reading Once I Was

When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.

My case against Hull Royal Ward 100, is and has been so mentally exhausting, that I've been unable to find the head space, mental and physical resilience, that would be required of myself alone to come up with the best legal and comprehensive, crucially raised and exposed- not to harm the NHS as a National … Continue reading When NHS Hospital becomes the jailer and the failure.

Mind In Motion

โ€œMind in Motionโ€ When shadows rise and silence calls, When hope feels lost behind these walls, Let not your heart give in to fear, For even now, the light is near. The road may twist, the path may break, Yet every step is one we take. No fall too great, no night too long, We … Continue reading Mind In Motion

This Gave Me Chills

This is a re blog and the link to the live performance of The Sound of Silence, gave me chills tooโ€ฆ and I donโ€™t doubt for a second that it will do the same for you! This Gave Me Chills

A shower of words to help those on a healing journeyโ€ฆ which is all of us reallyโ€ฆโค๏ธ

I hope you enjoyed reading these powerful quotes and messages, and that in all their diversity, you find one or twoโ€ฆ or three! Which resonate with you strongly, wherever you are in your journey right now! โค๏ธ

Another day in hospital, finding something to doโ€ฆ

It ainโ€™t easy. The sickness, the pain, the constant beeping of machines, the absolute thunder bolt of a shock when you recover enough to realise, your mind is active with hundreds of tabs open at once, you are more capable of movement, you are glad to be feeling like youโ€™re recovering, but oh what to … Continue reading Another day in hospital, finding something to doโ€ฆ

Sketches from my mindโ€™s edges: Explore snippets of my original Artwork- simply click โ€˜menuโ€™ button at the top of page to scroll down and select page ๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿฆโ€โฌ›

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There is no such thing as a mistake in Art. Creativity to the Mind is like the fallen Acorn which dropped into dark Earth below, only to become light and majesty in the growth of a new Oak Tree. Optimism in the Oak Treeโ€™s revival โ€˜Selfโ€™- The Colourstorm in motion Window to the Soul Cyclical … Continue reading Sketches from my mindโ€™s edges: Explore snippets of my original Artwork- simply click โ€˜menuโ€™ button at the top of page to scroll down and select page ๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿฆโ€โฌ›

Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!

Hello! A question we can all benefit from sharing between usโ€ฆ What are some of the different ways people try to keep themselves distracted/occupied/ mentally engaged for lengths of time? Iโ€™m talking: Coping strategies for those extra tough days, a new challenge to try doing something new or different, ways to try and keep your … Continue reading Sharing mind hacks for our minds in motion!

Making sense

I feel the terror of acknowledgment My whole mind and body, thoughts and beliefs Have been fabricated by cruel traumaโ€™s pretence Iโ€™ve been living my whole life in the narrative of the past tense See that colour, glimpse that number? Awaken thy devilโ€™s idle slumber I remember staring, into that stud of a groove, Piercing … Continue reading Making sense

Put your hands back in the Earth

If you want to re-connect with your roots, re-acquaint yourself with nature, and generally remind yourself about what it means to live, to be human (and therefore crafty, inquisitive, ambitious), then I strongly recommend you take some time to just have a little dig. Uproot some Dandelions, or a bit of your lawn. Expose the soil, … Continue reading Put your hands back in the Earth

Spinning in spiral

I creep into a tangle Mildly plucked, Iโ€™ve spun forsooth, a silvered web Draped in need, Dressed in lust, and endeavour Sparkling eyes. Look how she tries, endlessly tries Letโ€™s douse oneself, Submerge ourselves In dancing, weโ€™re disguised from Expectationโ€™s hollow cries I once hopped here, swirled in spiral Trickled like a breeze Upon an … Continue reading Spinning in spiral

New year, new Art

Snippets of snoppits- a whip-de-wewoo A little love from oneโ€™s aspiring. Psychedelic self โค๏ธ A work in progressโ€ฆ Suggestions welcome! Auricular acupuncture steampunk twist ear TBCโ€ฆ

Why Care?

Prove this wrong! Why care?  Sometimes to even manage to care is in itself a tremendous challenge, and from a very basic level, there is your first reason to pursue caring- because to be unable to do so is so very torturous, and certainly a place you donโ€™t want to remain shackled within.  So care … Continue reading Why Care?

Have a free poem day! Happy free poem day to you all!

Yay! https://mindinmotion.home.blog/?page_id=3533 ๐ŸŒˆ Blog Welcome to a world of limitless possibilities, where the journey is as exhilarating as the destination, and where every moment is an opportunity to make your mark on the canvas of existence. The only limit is the extent of your imagination. Mind In Motion- You'll love who we are Navigating life's … Continue reading Have a free poem day! Happy free poem day to you all!

Personal growth and Philosophy quotes for today โค๏ธ

Reclaiming a self- Philosophical Quotes which enable me to keep on paving my own path

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Why the fuck did I think that!?

Welcome to the end of another pretty ruthless year; 2024. This time last year, I felt a great deal more celebratory in this day, the birthday of Jesus Christ- 25th Decemberโ€ฆ. Iโ€™d just been discharged from a hospital admission whereby my abusive ex partner had found out where I was feeling and staying in refuge … Continue reading Why the fuck did I think that!?

How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life

Smiling is always possible again I know Iโ€™ve posted about this before, and rightly so. This time though Iโ€™m going to be more to the point, and the title has already basically said it all. All thatโ€™s left to add to it, is the highlight of the entire reason Iโ€™m still here to be writing … Continue reading How could I ever hold back the absolute magnitude of gratitude I have to Mind HEY- Your Crisis Pad has saved my life

Hull and East Yorkshire Mind- I repeat the gratitude for your Crisis Padโ€™s support, and thanks to you, Iโ€™m still here to be able to do so

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We do return, and we do recover

Narcotics Anonymous- Although I guess Iโ€™m sacrificing my own anonymity here amusinglyโ€ฆ Iโ€™ll happily proclaim my own identity, with pride and nothing near shame. Never would I break the anonymity of anyone besides myself, that goes without saying! Iโ€™m sharing an update that I posted to a support group for fellow warriors of recovery from … Continue reading We do return, and we do recover

Smiles rise across faces, like silent songs, hushing storms as they pass

More than just a โ€˜serviceโ€™ So I admit itโ€ฆ Recently, Iโ€™ve had a great deal of negative and emotionally charged declarations of fury to spurt out in angry statements, regarding the NHS, and โ€˜the state of the present day failingsโ€™ which recent experiences may well have influenced in shaping my words. In fact, Iโ€™ve been … Continue reading Smiles rise across faces, like silent songs, hushing storms as they pass

Absolutely no chance do I โ€˜trust my instinctsโ€™!

Do you trust your instincts? Would YOU trust this personโ€™s instincts!? Exactly as I thought- NOT A CHANCE ๐Ÿคฃ Seriously though, no I do not trust my instincts! I maybe once thought I could, and subsequently made the error of trusting them in years gone byโ€ฆ But if only you could see the train wreck … Continue reading Absolutely no chance do I โ€˜trust my instinctsโ€™!

Did You Know This Though?

Hmmm most exactlyโ€ฆ Google- I confess, I adore endlessly searching the seemingly infinite possibilities for new information and knowledge. ChatGBT- Wow, Iโ€™m only just discovering this gem for knowledge, too. Wikipedia- What a blessing we have to be able to access an endless loop of knowledge and facts, for free, additionally. I canโ€™t be the … Continue reading Did You Know This Though?

Windows Open

And I looked up to the sky, and behold, a rainbow shone down like a prism of soul It is proclaimed: When a person passes indoors, be it a hospital ward, hospice, their own home, or any box of bricks creating confines of a building, the window must be opened, so as to allow the … Continue reading Windows Open

A Place To Flyโ€ฆ

A poem written by myself 19/10/2024 A place To Fly I have pictures, like paper trials, of a mind, absconded Words can be my muse, but they can deceive and confuse In sketches, the wrought iron gate, whereby the words keep watch, under key, lateโ€ฆ A head filled with secret salubrity, ideas, overgrown trenches, sodden … Continue reading A Place To Flyโ€ฆ

Psychedelic Sundaysโ€ฆ

Enjoy this trippy visual journey into the colour dimension with me! Sunday vibes and rainy day excuses, paired with a personal tendency towards all things bright and beautiful, psychedelic and immersive, are all welcome in my box of reasoning behind this little creation. Enjoy! โฌ‡๏ธโฌ‡๏ธโฌ‡๏ธ https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGddwrDaq/ โฌ†๏ธโฌ†๏ธโฌ†๏ธ

Roots of consent

A poem written by Ellie Neves 15/10/2024 Consent never came into it Firm roots elude the view Of the shrivel of a mind, lost to some bottomless pit Printing into soil, walks the weight Marks the shape, tattooed into pairs Familiar curvature, predictable size Footprints from shoes, carrying human bodily freight Track after track, car … Continue reading Roots of consent

Realities In Motion

Reality Space and time I see the joys I see the crimes I see it all Pass โ€˜fore my eyes I hear the laughter Hear the cries I see the moments Most โ€ฆRealities In Motion

Absinthe of the Soul

The death of giving a damn Is absinthe for the soul Like a shattered glass Fragments of ego Strewn about the floor Two way mirror No reflection โ€ฆAbsinthe of the Soul

Hard workโ€ฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!

In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled? *First of all- Credit for the featured image set for this post goes to the wonderfully talented Artist Ella Dorson, who created the portrait of myself and my dog, blended spoken words exchanged between us beautifully, and used her Artwork of me alongside and part … Continue reading Hard workโ€ฆ Not a headline many people will warm to!

Mudras : Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth

Mudras: Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth. Mudras are symbolic hand motions that are frequently employed in Indian traditional โ€ฆMudras : Techniques for Improved Health and Spiritual Growth

Again, I lack present capacity for sensible answers, so you wonโ€™t get one today

What could you do more of? Stanley cannot even believe Iโ€™m about to admit this, butโ€ฆ I could certainly shut the fuck up, that is absolutely apparent, particularly evidenced by the fact that people who spend an hour in my company, are on average 7 times more likely to need a holiday, 10 times more … Continue reading Again, I lack present capacity for sensible answers, so you wonโ€™t get one today

Best advice in small packages

What's the best piece of advice you've ever received? Iโ€™ve received a lot of brilliant advice over time, and to be honest, itโ€™s going to be way too difficult to narrow it down, so Iโ€™m just going to come out with a recent rather hilarious piece of advice I received courtesy of a mental health … Continue reading Best advice in small packages

Disclaimer: My current mood and mindset is far off the sensibleโ€™ or โ€˜behave like an adultโ€™ radar. Answers to Questions may experience adverse side effects.

Which topics would you like to be more informed about? You ask, โ€˜which topics would I like to be more informed about?โ€™โ€ฆ This is considerate of a daily question prompt, to ask, and appreciation for a false sense of a blogging appโ€™s daily generated prompts might actually give a real fuck, about the lonesome writers … Continue reading Disclaimer: My current mood and mindset is far off the sensibleโ€™ or โ€˜behave like an adultโ€™ radar. Answers to Questions may experience adverse side effects.