This year

This year has brought chaos

This year has brought fractures

The days have slipped through me

While the minutes drag like decades

This year, it writes chapters

The stories are told,

Speak of love

Speak of loss

Speak of a free will depleting

Control and coercion

Narcotic and intoxicating

Nonsense and anger

Desperate diversion

An existence of Hell was my darkest immersion

This year began like an upturned puzzle

All the pieces were there

But they were upside down

Inside out

On their sides and stubbornly awry

The mess was enough to make anyone cry

This year I had to fix this

This time of now, not a moment to miss

My stars can swear on my behalf

That

This year

Has been

So hard.

Tough as tungsten.

But thank God for it

Because now I know

The soldier within me, now returns, to grow.

And once I’m back, my flowers will glow

The soul inside me will sing and will show

I’m the true bold person life now needs to know.

I finally faced more deepest fears

And the joy of this brings me to ecstatic tears

I’m free

I’m free

I’m finally me

I’m finally the person I am meant to be.